Miss Pathetic

~16~ After

Hey guys , sorry for late update . As I said , I was really sick but now I am feeling better . I really don't know what to say ..so yeah , keep commenting and voting . I really need them to motivate me . Also , I have changed the author's note because now I have got a trailor .I am still feeling a bit dizzy and lazy , so yeah ...anyways , enjoy :

I chickened out .

Yup, me Pathy Campbell chickened out .

As soon as I was about to kiss Logan I made up the lame excuse to go for a pee .I still remember it and my cheeks still flush .

I noticed that my and Logan's lips were almost touching . I could smell his vanilla-minty breath . Our lips seemed like they would fit and mold with each other perfectly . Our eyes were closed . As he was about to fully press his lips against mine , something inside my heart told me to not do it .

To not give my first kiss . To not have this relationship . To wait for the right time . To wait for the right person ...

I listened to my heart like always .

"Logan I have to take a wee" I immdediately backed away and stood up . His eyes widened and he noticed that now he was leaniging in towards the air . He backed away and looked at me with dissapointment and confusion .

"You have to pee now ?" He asked sadly and confusedly .

"Uhh , It's not my mistake if it is coming now ! Look , it's an emergency . I am going . Bye " I fake smiled panickly and practically ran away leaving behind a confused , hurt and dissapointed Logan .

I was so embarassed . How could have I chickened out from my first kiss ? Who does that ? But I guess I was scared . I just wanted to give my first kiss to a boy that would be special to me . Logan is special .....but I don't know , my heart kept telling me to back away . So I did . And now , things are wayy awkward between us . Great isn't it ? Note my sarcasm .

So , practically I have no one in this house for me . Emily ignores me and I am ignoring Logan .

Wow , my life is so messed up .

To lessen my loneliness I occasionally call Luke , mom and Bel .But still ....Well the finals are coming soon and I will be out of this hellhole that people call X-factor house . When I used to watch X-factor , I thought this was the coolest place ever .

I was so wrong .

Also I have noticed that my fandom has grown quite much . I have around 5 million followers. When I checked it out on twitter , my eyes were practically bulging out . A lot of things have happened . A lot of things have changed . X-factor has definitely changed my life . And this is just the beginning .

Now I see that fans are talking about me , I get loads of tweets everyday . Sometimes , news about me comes on TV . My interview was also showed and people found the chubby bunny challenge really funny . Also , many fans are shipping me with Logan . They call us Pogan . Honestly ? I think that's the worst possible ship name ever . It's not that I am shipping us but people should at least come up with good names .

The finals are near and I have no idea what to sing . I guess that's why I am in front of Simon right now . I noticed Simon was saying something , and that pulled me out of my thoughts .

"Pathy , you have to decide fast."

"I know , I know ... But , it's too difficult . What if I choose a wrong song ?"

"Pathy , this is the finals.It's big.You have to win this.Emily has already decided her song.Now you have to decide yours, " Simon said with a stern expression .