Love Worth Fighting For- Sophitz Story

Chapter 37

Sophie's POV

I had just gotten back from training with Fitz and Keefe, and was now just sitting in my own comfort writing in my diary...

Dear Diary

Last night... how do I say this... it was just so surreal everything I can remember and everything I have assumed. Most the night was a blur, but out of these scattered memories, there's one that has just stuck with me, eating at me wanting it to be true so bad? I think I kissed Fitz, and I know I should feel guilty but when I kissed him it was just so so indescribable, like sparks going everywhere. I keep telling myself that I imagined the whole thing, that it was all just a silly delusion, but that feeling in the memory the energy... that is not something you imagine-

I'm interrupted when someone not so subtly approaches me from behind, loud clicking of heels on the floor a big indicator, there was only one elf who would be crazy enough to wear 6-inch heels while running around the castle.

I whip my head around to see none other the familiar brunette grinning happily,

"sup Soph," Biana says meekly

"what do you want Biana" I groan, knowing it was something along the lines of makeover

"nothing... well maybe something, want a make-over?" Biana says slyly

"wouldn't have guessed," I say rolling my eyes "and no Biana I do not want a makeover I am busy"

"busy? Sophie what could you possibly be busy with" Biana says peering over my shoulder where my diary lay in all its glory

"n-nothing" I stammer shifting my weight attempting to cover the diary "hey maybe a make-over doesn't sound too bad" I nervously say

"that doesn't look like nothing Sophie, that looks like a book containing all your deepest darkest secrets," Biana says swiping the diary off the table

"no Biana!" I exclaim leaping to try and catch her, but it was too late she had disappeared somewhere, I scan the room trying to find some sign of life

"looking for this" Biana's voice calls out from behind me, I whip my head around to see Biana flicking from page to page a new face for each page

"Biana Vacker! Don't you dare!" I snap, fumbling to the other side of the room where Biana stood. No, she couldn't... not the last page!

"Biana please!" I plead trying to take diary out of her hand, suddenly the moment I had been dreading dawned on me. As Biana read the last page all colour drained out of her face. I gulp back the bile forming in my throat.

"you kissed Fitz?" Biana whispers her voice barely audible

"I don't know!" I shout ripping my hands through my hair

"I don't know" I whisper as my knees gave out and I fell to the ground sobbing

Biana stood their numb still trying to comprehend the situation

"no Biana! Is it okay?!" I say, "is it okay that I don't even know if it happened, and... and still I want it to be true?" I sniffle not knowing what to feel as I sobbed in my hands

"oh Sophie" Biana says slowly "I-I" Biana stammers trying to find the right words "Sophie, look," Biana says kneeling in front of me holding my hands "Sophie, you are in quite the predicament, but you can do this if you just follow your heart"

"what's that supposed to mean"

"Sophie, I can understand that you are quite split right now and don't know how to feel right now, but trust me when I say you do know how to feel you just don't want to accept it"