Midvale College, Supercorp Fic

Kara's Dream

KARA'S POV

I just woke up. I thought it was Lena who woke me up, I was sure I heard her voice. I looked over at her facing the other way in her bed. I must have imagined it. I wasn't convinced of that though.

I lay back down in my bed, but I couldn't sleep again, not yet. My dream had shaken me up too much, so I sat back up.

It was about - home. My old home. My old planet. And my old family. No, they're still my family even if they're not here anymore. They're somewhere else, and that's okay. I just miss them so much.

I miss how my mother would tuck my hair behind my ear and kiss my forehead before I slept. And how my father would pick me up and spin me in circles when I woke up.

I miss how Astra and I would share secret and talk in codes over our spy communicator. And how I'd be allowed to babysit Kal. He was the cutest baby I'd ever seen and I always felt so grown up when I was looking after him. One time I went out with him all on my own, and it was like he was all mine and I loved him so much. We played in the park, and I talked to him for what felt like hours.

Now I barely talk to him at all. He's all grown up now, and he doesn't really know me. And.. I don't really know him either. I don't really know anyone. Or at least that's what it feels like. It feels like I'll never really fit with anyone ever again. Like I'm still all alone. Like I was in my pod on the journey here.

I wasn't asleep the whole journey. I said I was to Alex, Eliza and Jeremiah, but I lied. I woke when the planet knocked me off course. I'd only been asleep for a minute or two, but it was a security precaution. I didn't know how to fly the ship, so I couldn't put it back on course. I was so afraid. And because I had been woken up, I'd seen the remains of my planet flying away in different directions. Parts were breaking down. There was a piece of the surface the flung past me. I'd recognised it. But things looked so different, they were all falling apart. And I couldn't bare it, so I managed to put ensure the ship was on autopilot still, and put myself back into stasis.

It's things like that I remember in my dreams. The good, and the bad. It usually starts off with the good bits and the the bad bits flood in and wake me up.

Things aren't as bad as when I first came to Earth though. I have family and friends. I care and love them, and I know they care and love me too. I try to keep hope of that, always. Always was a thing I used to do with my mum. Now though, it was a sister thing with Alex and me. We'd tell each other and reasure each other with that. Know that we'll love each other always.

I'd said it a few times in front of Lena now. She was aware it was a thing for us. She knew it was important to me. I see her smile sometimes when she hears is say that to each other. Sometimes it's an 'aw that's so cute' smile, but usually it's a sad longing but happy for us smile. I'm certain she thinks I haven't noticed her occasional sad smiles when she sees me with my friends while she's alone.

I wish she'd just come over and join in. I've often wondered if I should go over and invite her myself, but things kept getting in the way.

At least I finally talked to her the other day. And now, she'll be joining me for tennis and swimming. So I'll definitely be seeing more of her.

I looked her way. I listened to the beats of her heart.

Badum Badum Badum

I listened to her steady inhales and exhales.

In, and out. In, and out.

I can't remember how many times I've done this now. I just seemed to calm me. I used to listen out for her in case she needed anything on her first week and didn't want to ask. Now I just do it because.... I'm not sure.

I suppose I just enjoy listening to her, it calms me down. There something so surreal about listening to her heart beat and breathing. Something I didn't get the same way with Alex. Alex is my sister, and I love her, but it's just not the same.

She's just different to everyone, and I'm not sure what it is. The ways she looks at me and smiles. The way she furrows her eyebrows when she studies. The way she thinks I can't hear her hum and sing, but I can and I don't tell her so that she won't stop. She gives me badass, sexy, mature, emotional, caring, sweet, inteligent vibes. And I think I really like it.

My eyes are stuck on her. I'm eyeing her resting body. Her hair is spread across her pillow. Her duvet is down under her waist. Her shirt is lifted and her stomach is on display. Her shorts are a little low as well and I can see her hips. My eyes glue themselves to her.

'She's so gorgeous!' is all I could think.

I kept staring at her body until my eyes began to droop back to sleep. She's still on my mind, even as I begin to dream.

I'm just seeing her body. She giving me a pricing look with those icey emerald eyes. It's like her eyes are pushing against my chest, forcing me backwards, while at the same time, she's drawing me in. Like a moth to a flame, I come closer to those burning green fires.

Her cheeks are clearly blush against her pale skin. Her wavey raven hair is cascading down her bare shoulders, held back by her delicate hands. She's not wearing any make up or jewelry of any kind. And she's utterly beautiful. My focus turned to her lips. Rounded and soft. A familiar smirk appeared. Her eyebrows raised at me like so many times before.

I felt the gentle touch of her hand on my shoulder. Her face was near now. So close. I could almost-

"BEEP BEEP BEEP"

Lena's alarm blared. I grumbled. 'No! My dream!'

"Why do you always wake up so early!"
I groaned honestly"

"Sorry Kara." I heard Lena's sweet voice say. I wasn't mad at her, I couldn't be. It's literally impossible.
So, I smiled brightly at her. I wasn't exactly a morning person, or at least I didn't used to be. Only when I felt excited or motivated would I be a proper morning person. Since Lena came though, I've been feeling that alot more often.

The thought of Lena reminded me of my dream. 'Oh Rao!'

I hid under my duvet. 'I was just about to-'
I heard her laugh, it was such an angelic sound.

I heard her shuffle out of bed and yawn lowdly. I giggled at her cuteness and peeped out from under the duvet at her. Her smile came my way, and I capture its essence in my heart before she turned and went into the bathroom for, presumably, her morning shower.