I Need You

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TW's:
-Little panic and anxiousness

BadBoyHalo's POV

I was so much less anxious with Skeppy around. We arrived at the zoo and I was excited. I hadn't gone to a zoo for years and I always wanted to go. With Skeppy it was even more amazing. I was so happy that I walked to Skeppy and I started hugging him. He smiled and hugged back.

'Are you happy?' he asked.

I nodded. He might have been shorter than me, but I buried my face in his hoodie.

'Thank you so much. I feel happy. Really happy.'

I could almost hear him smile and when we broke the hug we looked at each other. He was blushing and so was I. I didn't really know why, but my cheeks were so hot and my stomach made me feel weird, but good. I didn't know what it meant, but I felt so extremely relaxed around Skeppy. Maybe I pushed him away, but I was so happy he stayed.

Skeppy's POV

I let go of Bad and blushed. I was looking for toilet, I was feeling so weird. I had to be alone for a while to look up some things. I wasn't gay right? Why did I feel this weird around him when he touched me. Did I like him? Of course as a friend, but as more than a friend?

'Bad, I have to use the bathroom.'

'Oh okay, can I maybe wait in the car? I'm a little anxious to wait alone here.'

'Sure.'

I started running to the toilet and grabbed my phone. Google might not be accurate always, but I needed it.

How do you know you're in love?

There was a stupid small test and I felt so hopeless, I decided to make the test.

Do you feel nervous around them?
Yes
No
Sometimes

I decided to answer with sometimes and went to the next question.

Do you want to be them the whole time?

Do you feel butterflies?

Do you think about them a lot?

The test continued and I recognised more and more. My result was clearly Yes.

'You like them, try and make a move.'

Stupid test. How could I know this was accurate enough? I wasn't gay right? I just loved him as a friend? But maybe every time I said that, I meant it as more. Maybe I did like him. Was I gay? I decided to do another test, this time asking if I was gay. I knew it was stupid and it didn't work at all, but I wanted to try it anyway. I made the test and I was waiting for the results. I startled when it said Gay.

Not even bisexual, just gay. I knew it was not accurate at all, but I still had a feeling it might have been right. I did like him and I did feel weird around him.

I was afraid to go back, I would only blush so badly now I knew I might be gay. I still walked back, I couldn't let Bad sit there in the car alone. We were going to the zoo together. Maybe that was the problem. Together. If I liked him, how was I able to hide this. He didn't like me. Of course he didn't. He wasn't gay. I felt disgusted about myself. How could I be gay, why was I like this. I was fine with others being gay, but not myself. I wanted to be straight, like a girl. I didn't want to like my best friend.

'Hey muffinhead,' Bad said when I was back. He giggled cutely. I felt those same butterflies in my stomach and blushed. I did like him.

'Are you okay? Are you having a fever?'

I shook my head. 'It's hot I guess.'

'A little.'

'Come, let's buy tickets.'

Without me even noticing, I grabbed his hand to pull him with me. I startled when I realised I did. I blushed even more than I already did before and looked at his hand locked with mine. I started breathing faster and walking faster.

'Hey, stop. You're not okay. What's wrong?'

'Nothing, nothing. Let's just quickly go to buy some tickets.'

'You're acting weird, but fine.'

Of course I'm acting weird. I just figured out I'm probably gay and in love with my best friend.

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I'm currently in the bus, please let no one see this lol