I Need You

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TW's:
-Kinda bullying
-Panic attack
-Mentions self harm and self hate

BadBoyHalo's POV

I looked up at Skeppy to finally feel something, but pain. Our day at the zoo had been incredible. I loved every second of it. Though, Skeppy had been acting weirdly since a few hours. He became more distant. We were sitting downstairs currently. He sat on another couch, far away.

'Skeppy? Can we watch a movie?'

He shrugged. 'I don't really feel like it.'

'Oh, sorry.'

'Yeah.'

I laid down on the couch, sleeping a little. I didn't understand why he sounded so bluntly. Did I do something wrong?

'Skeppy?'

'What do you want?'

'Sorry.'

'Yeah, you should be.'

'Did I do something wrong?'

'Well, is that really a question?'

'Yes, I don't understand why you are acting so weird. Today was so fun and I was finally happy for a little, but now you're acting so weird.'

'I'm acting weird? I can help it that you're annoying as hell.'

'What?'

'Yes, you heard me. You're annoying. I regret coming here. I could have known you are annoying, I could have known you would be a burden. I have never liked you in any form or way.'

Tears streamed down my face. I didn't understand why he was being this mean to me. I stood up and walked away, I didn't want to be here for a while. It really hurt a lot what he was saying to me. I walked away and locked myself in my room, heartbroken. I started crying and I felt myself getting short of breath. Why? Why was he this mean? I stood up again. I wanted to ask him why he did this. I walked slowly to the living room, I was scared.

'Skeppy?'

'What?' he screamed.

I walked in and startled. He was holding a knife. He laughed viciously.

'I never loved you, Bad. In fact, I hate you so badly I think I will just end it here.'

'No, don't. I thought we were friends!'

'No, never been. I hate you just as much as all haters hate you. They are right about every single thing.'

'But-.'

'SHUT UP.'

Skeppy walked closer to me with the knife and held it closer to me. 'Any last words?'

'Stop, please. I loved you.'

'I didn't, bye Bad.'

And then I woke up, screaming in fear, sweating like I ran a marathon. I started hyperventilating shortly after I woke up. I started crying and I felt a panic attack coming up. I started crying harder and harder and I didn't know what to do anymore. I stood up to check on Skeppy, but I couldn't stand up. I crawled to my door, but I couldn't. I was annoying, he was right. I clinched my fists and started hitting myself out of panic.

'No, not Skeppy. NO NO NO.'

I felt bad for screaming, because Skeppy was asleep, but I didn't know what to do anymore. This panic attack was worse than ever. I started screaming louder, my cries ended in screaming too and I hit myself harder and harder. I was completely going crazy.

'Skeppy?' I cried.

I cried for his help, but I was so scared at the same time. What if it wasn't a nightmare? What if he actually told me that? What if he was coming to murder me? But I was going to die, I had no breath. I was so short of breath and I felt extremely nauseous. I started coughing because I was crying so hard. I realised I was laying on the floor and I felt cold. I missed my sheets and pillows, but I couldn't stand up. My legs felt like jelly. I was going to die, I knew it. I couldn't breath. I suddenly heard footsteps running and the door opened.

'No, g-go a-away,' I said.

'Bad! What's going on?'

'L-leave.'

I cried even harder and I felt like throwing up. I couldn't breath, I just couldn't. I was going to die for sure. I had no breath, I couldn't breath. I was dying, I knew it. I was dying.

'I'm dying,' I whispered.

'No, you're not. Keep calm.'

'I am, Skeppy.'

I started coughing again, I was dying here and now. I just knew it.

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