I Need You

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TW's:
-Bullying
-Mentions suicide

Skeppy POV

I was texting Bad everyday and this morning. His Twitter got deleted and after that his Telegram too. He didn't listen to my calls on Discord and TeamSpeak either. I knew Bad had been anxious lately, but I had no idea what was going on. Why did he cut off all contact? Did I do something wrong?

I had been stressing the whole time and I decided to make a plan. I called Bad again, but he didn't take the call again. I felt tears in my eyes. He wasn't okay. Bad, my best friend wasn't okay. I noticed his self hate lately too, I tried telling him it wasn't true, but he didn't listen. Small comments like: I'm ugly or fat became less rare every single day. They crushed me, knowing my best friend hated himself. What if he was doing something bad? Would he think about that? Would he do it? Kill himself?

I got so worried and I checked my phone. I still didn't have any texts of him. I loved him, I couldn't let him fall. I had to do something. I grabbed my bags and started packing some stuff. Clothes, laptop, deodorant. After twenty minutes I was done. I was just 7 am now. The sun rose and it was getting morning. I looked around me. I didn't need anything else. I grabbed my phone. I had ordered some pizza at his address a while ago for a video. I wrote the address down and stepped in my car. I firstly opened YouTube. I missed Bads voice.

I opened one of his videos and listened to it through my EarPods. I started driving, listening to Bads voice. It calmed me down a little. He would be okay, I would help him, whatever he went through.

It was an 3 hours drive, I would be there around noon. I checked once more if I had everything and I did. I could also buy some new clothes there.

When I drove for 1,5 hours, I decided to take a little break. I didn't sleep well and I wanted to drive safely. I took the time to eat a few crackers and watched Bads video. I scrolled down to the comments and I startled. What? He was only getting hated on.

Kill urself Bad
153 likes

You're worth nothing
252 likes

This video sucks
627 likes

Did u really think we would like this?
1,3k likes

My mouth fell open. He got bullied. My Bad got bullied. Was he really going to kill himself. I jumped back into my car and drove high above the speedlimit. I had to be fast, before I knew it was too late and he was dead. I loved him, I couldn't live without him. I drove way to fast, I probably had a fine, but I didn't care. Bad was way more important than that stupid bit of money. I saw I had half an hour left and I got scared. What was I going to see? My dead friend? Or something else. An extremely vulnerable person?

I was so scared I didn't even notice myself crying. I started driving even faster and I drove through all red lights. Why would I care about some money, my friend was maybe dead. The last half an hour I listened to some music to calm me down. I liked listening to some calm music from time to time. Sometimes when everything got too much for me, I listened to that. It calmed me down a little, but the only thing that really calmed my down, were Bads words. How he helped me always, even though he was dying from the pain inside.

He was always there for me in the darkest times, when I moved, when I had to take a break from YouTube. I didn't even know what was wrong yet and I was already crying my eyes out. Not Bad, why him? Why did people treat him like garbage? He was such an amazing person. He was the nicest, the sweetest and the most caring person I ever met.

I finally arrived at his place around twenty minutes later and parked my car. I knocked on the door, but I had no reaction. I wanted to call the police, but I firstly tried opening the door, apparently it wasn't closed. I slowly opened it and closed my eyes. Extremely scared for what I was going to see.

'Bad? Are you there?' I whispered.

I slowly opened my eyes, startled and started crying. I fell down on my knees and screamed.

'BAD, NO.'

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