I Need You

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TW's:
-Mentions homophobia
-Mentions self hate etc.

I quickly moved away from Bad and realised what I did. I just kissed him.

'Why did you do that?' he asked me in disgust.

'I didn't mean to, I just wanted to prove I loved you.'

'Are you gay?'

'I-.'

He was crying so hard and I couldn't touch him, he would push me away.

'Go away.'

'I will, I'm so sorry.'

'Why did you do that?' he asked again.

'I-.'

'You're gay?'

'Y-yes.'

'Leave.'

'But you're having such a bad panic attack.'

'AND YOU KISSED ME. If my father finds out that I kissed a boy-.'

'I'm so sorry, Bad. I- it just happened. I'm so sorry. I wish I could make it better.'

'BY LEAVING, if my dad-.'

'You don't speak with him anymore right?'

That was a stupid comment. I knew it. I waited for him screaming at me, but it stayed quiet.

'I-,' he started. 'You didn't mean it, you're not gay. You don't like me.'

'Well, why would I kiss you then?'

'Because you just pity me.'

'No, because I like you. Because I am gay.'

'I can't.'

'What?'

'I don't know if I like you like that and if I did, my dad would kill me.'

'He isn't here.'

'How did you found out you're gay? And how long do you know?'

'Actually just when we were in the zoo and I actually uh- I just did stupid tests.'

'Did they work?'

'Apparently.'

'How did you know?'

'I- this is awkward. Bad, I like you.'

'But how do you know if you like someone.'

'Butterflies, blushing, high heart rate.'

'I have that I think with someone.'

I felt my heart shatter in a thousand pieces. He didn't like me, he liked someone else. How could I be so stupid to kiss him. He is straight and he has a crush on someone else.

'Oh. I'm sorry-,' I started. I began to cry and ran away.

How could I be this stupid. Of course he didn't like me, how could I even kiss him. How did I have that courage. I was so stupid.

'Skeppy?'

'No, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for liking you and kissing you. I didn't mean to, it just happened. I'm sorry, I hope it turns out well with your crush, I won't bother you anymore. I think I can better just leave.'

'Skeppy, you don't understand.'

'I do, you don't like me and I kissed you. That must be awful for you.'

'I like you too, muffin.'

I lifted my head up and looked at him. He looked serious.

'What? No, don't try and make me feel better. I know you don't.'

'I do, I just didn't realise it, until you kissed me.'

'You felt something?'

'Butterflies. Skeppy?'

'Yes?'

'Can we redo that kiss?'

I blushed and stood up. 'Can we?'

'I want to now. I think I might be gay too and I like you too. I just didn't realise it, just as you didn't realise it.'

He stood up too, he was extremely calm suddenly. We both were very nervous, knowing we were about to kiss, only not when exactly.

Bad walked closer to me and I wrapped my arms around his shoulders, looking him in the eyes. I was shorter than him and I had to look up just slightly. He smiled and wrapped his arms around my middle. We looked at each other for a few minutes and then started leaning in. I took only ten seconds for our lips to connect and I felt my stomach exploding with butterflies. I felt my cheeks heating up very badly and I wrapped my arms even tighter around Bad. His lips were softer than expected, the kiss was way better than expected, way better than the last kiss. Everything was right now. The kiss lasted maybe five minutes and before we knew we started kissing again.

'I love you,' I muttered through the kiss.

'Thanks.'

'For?'

'Saving me.'

I smiled, kissing him again. We got completely lost in the moment and I could have continued for a while too. His arms around me so gently. It was amazing. I didn't want to break the kiss at all until my phone rang.

George called.

707 words

This ending is like bad, it's not the ending of the book!