Falling (BTS J-Hope FF)

Siren Call

A/N I don't think I need to explain this one.

Lex POV

After arriving home, I go into my room to change and go to bed, but my feelings are heightened and I can't seem to relax. Of course, I still get butterflies whenever I think about my evening with Hoseok and the incredible kisses we shared, but I am still dealing with the emptiness I feel when not in his presence and the grief of my loss comes crashing back in. The pain has lessened, but there is still an ache I can't seem to be free of. So many reminders assault me when I come home. But behind even all of that, lies a feeling that something is wrong. A feeling of danger that I can figure out.

I sit on my bed and let my head fall back, sighing. I want him here with me now. I reach for my phone, but stop short of turning it on. My brows furrow in confusion as a thought occurs to me. He never gave me his phone number or asked for mine. I flip my phone from one hand to the other as I contemplate this new revelation. I'm pretty sure he likes me, based off the previous few hours, but he never mentioned how to get a hold of me. How odd... Then my stomach falls as I begin thinking of all of the meanings behind it. 

Is he hiding something? Was he not interested in anything other than a quick fling and then once he was bored with me, that was it? Or...? Or, was he already in a relationship, and heaven forbid, cheating with me? No, Lex, just stop. You're just nervous and it's making you think the worst. But then, it goes back to why he hasn't wanted to exchange phone numbers...

Even though we had just met, there was something to him, something to the idea of us that I can't let go of. He's unlike anyone I've ever met. He radiates light and happiness. And he has an indescribable sex appeal that I couldn't deny. But then he was also a complete mystery to me. Why would he not want me to be able to contact him. As much as I tried to fight it, it made my heart hurt to think he was lying or hiding something from me.

I fall back onto my bed, as frustrated tears begin to well up in my eyes. If only I could talk to him right now...

"Hoseok," I whisper.

Hoseok POV

I follow Jin down the hall and into our meeting room. Namjoon is already there, sitting at the end of the long table. Jin takes a seat beside him and motions for me to sit. I decide to stand. 

Namjoon pulls his lips inward and shakes his head in frustration. "Hoseok, please stop being difficult," he says to me.

"I didn't realize standing was considered being difficult," I retort, crossing my arms across my chest.

He stares at me for a moment before continuing. "Okay, let's make this clear, this meeting is because of your own doing," he says, hotly, "No one but you and your choices have brought this whole thing upon yourself. So, if you want to be pouty and angry, you know exactly who to blame. Are we clear?"

I refuse to answer and just continue to glare at him. 

"Are we clear?!" He nearly shouts.

"Crystal."

"Good. Now onto the the matter at hand. Hobi, you are one of my top guardians, if not one of the top guardian angels around. So, when you missed your rounds tonight, that put me and the others in difficult positions. Regardless of what this whole thing is with this human girl, do you not care about your brothers any more? Do we not matter to you?"

My head snaps up at his words. My jaw drops at the accusation in his tone. "Of course, you all still matter to me! You all are my family and I will always care deeply. How could you ask me that, Joon?"

"How could I not? You're shirking your duties, and your choices are going to have a far reaching impact upon us all, if you continue down this path. Do you not understand that?" He asks, leaning forward, resting his intertwined fingers on the table. 

I finally decide to sit. I've known what my choice could entail, but I pushed it aside in an attempt to not acknowledge it. I didn't want to hurt my family. And I didn't want to abandon my job. It is who I am. "Namjoon, I don't want to hurt anyone, including her."

He sits back in his chair as he assesses me. He looks to Jin, for extra help, but he just looks back at him with a small shrug of his broad shoulders. Namjoon raises his brows and Jin gives a small nod.

Jin looks at me and licks his lips, hesitating. "Look, Hobi, I know what you're feeling. I know the allure of it, the excitement of it. But, I also know what's more important," Jin says to me. 

But I'm not listening. I hear something low. It's similar to what I hear when on my patrols, helping those who are in need. Except this call is different. This one is coming from inside of me. I look up to my brothers but they don't seem to hear it. It is a tug on my heart and it calls to me like nothing I've ever heard or felt before.

It's her calling my name.

"I'm sorry, but I've got to go," I say, quickly standing up and heading for the door.

"Wait! Hoseok, we're not done here!" Namjoon calls after me.

My hand is already on the door. "I know, and I'm sorry, but I just can't stay right now," I reply over my shoulder as I run out of the room.

"Hoseok!" I hear both my brothers yell, but I'm already running through the front door, taking flight.