"What if I want to find a boy?" ✓

"The first meeting"

We need a warlock- Izzy said.
-Yeah, sure. Who could it be then? Do you know any good warlocks, Alec?-Jace asked me, but I wasn't able to look at him. I didn't need to look at him. He was holding her hand. It was Clarys' hand. I was so fucking jelaous. I wanted to say something, but again I wasn't able to. Jace... Jace my parabatai, was holding HER hand. "She's a Valentine daughter" - I thought.
-Alec?!- Jace said my name louder.
-Yes... I mean no I don't know a good warlock- I told him.
And then Clary- our angelic girl said:
- Jace!I think I know one. I mean I don't know him personally, but I know where to find him.
-Wonderful- my sister wasn't helping.
-But there's one more thing. To find him we need to go to the party and it might be quite dangerous...- Clary started
-Don't worry- Jace hold her- "Dangerous" is my second name.
-So we're going to the party. It's time to dress up guys- Izzy was so happy...
Finally Clary went with Isabelle to her room and Jace asked me:
-What's up mate? Come on I know something is wrong.
-What?! I'm okay- I lied. I wasn't okay.
There was a silence for a moment and then I said that:
-Clary huh? Is she your girlfriend now?
-Yes man, I Hope you're not mad. Now we just need to wait for you to find yourself a pretty girl- Jace was laughing- I gotta go- he told me.
So I went to my room, and my heart was in a million pieces. I cried. I know I'm weak, and I know Shadowhunters don't cry but I cried. And it was okay. "a pretty girl" it was the most painful part. What if I...? What if I want to find a boy?
"Okay, Alec. It's time to dress up." I decided. So I wore a Black suit and white shirt. I looked like gay. A shy gay.
Did Jace notice?
When I left my room I saw Clary and Izzy. My sister looked beautiful and sexy like always. She just has a style, okay?
And Clary. She's not special. She definitely borrowed clothes from Izzy. She was wearing a black skirt and short green top. They looked similar. But there was one more thing. Clary was wearing a jacket. Black letter jacket. I saw this jacket before. It belonged to Jace. Weird. Jace is not romantic. But who knows? Maybe Clary changed him a little, or a lot.
-Whatever-
When we came to the party I didn't feel good. Jace was dancing with Clary and they even kissed. I saw it by the accident of course. Isabelle disappered as always. I started looking for a warlock. I asked a seelie.
-Have you seen Magnus? Magnus... Bane?
-Yes, I have. He's a host here.
-WHERE IS HE? - I wasn't patient. I wanted to get out of here.
-Calm down. He's right there- she showed me, I texted Jace and Izzy, okay even Clary.
They came really fast. Clary with Jace but it wasn't important.
Suddenly Clary said that she can see him. I dont know why but I trusted her.
I actually don't wanna describe it but he finally came to us. When I saw him I was like "God he's fucking gorgeous". His makeup, his hair.... I wanted to touch his hair. No Alec. Focus.
-Well, well, well. Shadowhunters, here?- we heard his voice.
-We came here, because we need your help- Izzy was confident like always.
-Stop. Actually I want him- he pointed at me- to be your voice. So tell me you handsome Shadowhunter. What do you want from me?
-Will you... Will you dance with me? - I asked and I was like "I did it... Piss off Jace"
-Ow, you're so sweet, but I feel that you want me to do more than this- he didn't take this seriously...
- No, I mean... yes. We have more important things. But I'm, I'm serious. Will you dance with me?- I was proud of myself.
-Oh well, young Shadowhunter. I will. With pleasure- and he just took my hand and we started dancing. I felt that Jace was looking at me. But I didn't care. I felt okay. What's more I felt good. And happy.
Incredibly happy.
-So what's your name, pretty boy?- Magnus asked me.
-Alec... I'm Alec. Alexander Lightwood.
-You're so cute when you're stressed.- he was flirting with me.
-But you barely know me...- I said.
-But I'll know you better, if you'll let me in- he smiled and gave me a champagne- As I always say alcohol make us happier, honey.
-Yeah, sure- I was a little shy, it was too much.
Then Clary came in. Bitch.
-Sorry, guys but we need some answers.
-We?- I was mean, I know- You and?
-Me and Jace of course. Izzy's not here. She needed to go back to the Institute.
-Right. Magnus,I'm sorry but can we?-I was ashamed.
-There's no problem, Alexander. What questions your lovely friend has?- he definitely had my sisters' confidence.
I liked it.