AIDEN
I entered my house and it turns out my mom was still awake, she noticed me and smiled. I checked the time and noticed it was almost 11PM. "Heyyy. What's um... what's up, mom?" I asked, realising how suspicious I was being.
"You and Asahi- when was that a thing?" She asked and I bit my lip. "We're just friends, mom." I told her and she shook her head, knew that I was lying, badly too.
She smiled softly, "It's okay. I'm not mad about it, just... disappointed-"
Dissapointed?
"We're not dating-"
"I know what I saw, Aiden...!" She cut me off, raising her voice a bit. "...mom?" I tried to say and she shook her head.
"Were you going to tell me? About you two? About you liking boys?" She asked but I was just too overwhelmed to say anything.
"Mom... I'm just..." I started to say but stopped.
"Yes?"
I'm not ready.
"I'm just... ex... experimenting."
"He's not an object, Aiden. What the fuck are you talking about?"
"No, mom, listen-"
"I don't know what you're planning to do with him but if you still don't get it- Honey... I don't care, you love who you love. I will still love you the same, nothing's gonna change that... you know that right?" A tear fell from her eyes and I just stared at her, not knowing what to say.
She walked over to me, "look at me please..." I can't.
"Mom, I'm not ready."
"You looked really happy when you were with him earlier?" She reminded me and I smiled a little. "Yeah, I was..."
"Then what's wrong?" She asked me.
"I'm not ready to.. make it public? Mom, I don't know." I tried to explain and my mom nodded her head. "I understand, honey, I get it. I won't tell anyone, not until you're ready... Is he out?" She asked and I shrugged my shoulders.
"I don't know actually...?" I said, realising how unsure... and unplanned everything was. "I'll ask him tomorrow, we'll.. talk about us." I said and smiled.
"Okay, that's good to know. Asahi seems like a really nice kid."
"He's weird though."
"What? No, he's not. You are."
She's right.
"Nope."
"Go to bed, it's 11." She said and I nodded my head. "Alright... good night, mom." I let her know and she smiles at me. I was about to walk to the stairs until mom stopped me, "Aiden?" She called out.
I turned around. "Just letting you know, whenever you feel.. whenever you have doubts about anything, you come and tell me. I'll be here and I'll try to be more open-minded about it. Okay?" She stated and I smiled at her, "Okay mom, thanks."
"Good night, honey." She told me and I went back to her, wrapping my arms around my mom. "I love you, mom." I managed to say while trying not to crack.
I wasn't going to let her see me having a breakdown, not now.
"I love you too."
