You-Me-Us

The first day

Time jump to Danis first days in Bly Manor

Jamies perspective

I knew she was coming today. I guess I just wasn't really prepared for it.

I saw her when she was at the lake with Flora and when she was at the well where she met Hannah. I was too far away to say hi or introduce myself, so I just waited for a better moment.

From the first time I saw her, I thought that she was pretty. But everytime I did see her, I couldn't see her face clearly because I was too far away.

That's why I was so starstruck when I walked into the kitchen. There she was, sitting at the kitchen table. She was so beautiful I was pretty amazed to be honest. But I was also way to starstruck to say anything.

So I guess I just played the toughie, who doesn't even say hi to the new Au Pair, but inside I felt like a middle schooler, too afraid to say hi to a pretty girl.

I hope she doesn't think I am just too rude to greet her. That's how I come off to other people anyway. That's what it does to you, being alone all your life. You reject people. That's what it does to you if you show people love, but they don't return it.

But plants... all the effort you put into them ends up showing. They grow into beautiful flowers or bushes, reflecting your love and time. But people, they just don't.  That's why I prefer plants over people.

Who knows. Maybe someone, once in a blue moon, is worth the effort.

Later that week, I was just carrying some fertilizer across the yard when all of a sudden the new Au Pair comes out the front door and started crying.

"You alright?" I asked her. I think I may have scared her a little bit with that. Wow what a great first , well more like second, impression. I tried to reassure her a bit, I assumed she was just stressed with the kids and all that, but I feel like there was more to it. But I didn't want to go into detail in our first proper conversation.

I tried to cheer her up a bit and I think it may have worked a little bit. She seemed like she was doing a little better.

"Chin Up, Poppins" I exclaimed to her when I started to head inside. She laughed, and that made something in my heart light up a little.

Danis Perspective

When she walked into the kitchen, I was confused at first. I didn't know who she was, but she was apparently known to everyone else in the room. But damn, she was pretty. She was wearing overalls with a flannel over them. I assumed she was the gardener as I had been told that there was one working there during the day.

It was weird. She didn't say anything to me at all. Barely looked at me. It didn't seem rude, because, to be honest, I kind of felt like I had met her before. She seemed so familiar but yet so distant.

I kind of hoped that she would talk to me, while we were sitting in the kitchen eating lunch, but other than a few sentences, we didn't talk very much, and when we did, it was really just toward everyone sitting at the table. Something about her seemed so obscurely fascinating to me, but I didn't know what it was. I gave her a couple glances, but she never returned any of them to me, and I don't know why, but it made me a little disappointed . Almost like when your middle school crush doesn't greet you in the hallway.

The first time I actually talked to her was when I had a literal mental breakdown later that week, after Flora questioned me about the glasses. I ran out of the house to escape everyone and be alone. But just when I had reached a place where I thought I was alone, I heard her.

She asked me if I was alright, I mean I obviously wasn't, but I just a greed with her when she asked me if I was stressed because of the kids. She made jokes, and really tried to cheer me up. To be honest it worked a little too well.

When she left, she called me "Poppins" and it kind of made my heart melt. It gave me butterflies in my stomach that I've never really felt like that before. But could that even happen with someone I had rarely talked to?

I've always kind of known that I liked girls, but I didn't really admit it to anyone, until just before the marriage.

This little conversation I had with the gardener felt more right than any conversation I had with Eddie, my ex-fiancè.