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chapter 7 date night

TW/ SELF HARM PLS IF THATS A TRIGGER FOR YOU DONT READ THIS CHAPTER.
tonight was the night Spencer was going to take me on a date. One thing tho that i couldn't get out of my head was Spencer saying he's not as innocent as everyone thinks. I mean obviously i know how he is in bed. He demanding. Is that it? or is it something else?

You did your hair and make up and threw on a slick black dress with lacy underwear. (that was for tonight) it was now 7:00 and Spencer should be there to pick you up at any moment now.

"hey y/n. You ready for our date?" he asked me. "obviously." i giggled. I never would have thought this is where i would be with him.

We got to the dinner and started eating our food. "so y/n where did you grow up?" he asked. "i grew up in y/h/t(your home town)." i replied. " oh wow. i grew up in vegas with my mom. My dad wasn't really around much." i felt bad for him. His mom has schizophrenia, and like he just said his dad wasn't around much.

Dinner was amazing. All though there was one thing that bugged me. His phone went off like every 5 seconds. He just dismissed it, but who could that have been?

He dropped me off at home and whenever i went to kiss him goodnight his phone went off again. "you gonna answer that?" i asked. He kinda just looked off and shook his head. I grabbed his phone to look who it was. "no y/n please-" he pleaded. And there it was. He had been messaging some girl. She said she loves him. "who the hell is this?" my voice cracked. "y/n please let me explain."

"e-explain it then. who the h-hell is she" i asked this time crying. He looked down at the ground. "her name is maeve. I wanted to tell you, but-" i cut him off. "but what you just wanted to use me for sex? I- I cant with you. I thought you were perfect. I thought this is the one. From the-" I stopped my self. I couldn't think straight. He didn't have any words. I slammed the door. I know what i need right now.

I went to the bathroom. I'm so angry and broken right now. I don't want to die. but i know i'll go too deep. So i called morgan. "morgan. i'm about to do something stupid i need to you to call an ambulance. I don't tell spencer anything." before he could say anything i hung up.

i grabbed the blade and just started cutting. I knew they were deep because of how much blood there was. I'm no good for anything. I'm only good for sex. From the amount of blood loss i passed out.

"y/n! y/n! hey baby come on stay with me." i could here morgan crying out for help and my name. My whole body was going numb. was this it. Is this how i go out?

I could feel them bringing me out to the ambulance. "wait is that y/n? Y/N! NO NO NO STAY WITH ME PLEASE." i could hear spence calling out my name. i didn't want him here. I guess this is what happens whenever you live straight in front of each other.

Ah yes a cliff hanger gotta love thos. also thank you so fucking much for 90 reads!!