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chapter 9 im sorry

"emily it's okay you can let him in." i was still sore and my arms hurt badly. It was so stupid of me to do that over him. it just brought back bad memories of whenever i was in college.

"y/n. how are you feeling?" he asked. he looked like he had been crying. his face was red and his eyes were puffy. I know he feels bad.

"i'm feeling better. I'm a little tired and my arms hurt but i'm fine i should be back at work by tomorrow. well in a couple days they have me on suicide watch." i explained to him. He put his hands in mine. They were warm and soft. God this boy.

"y/n i'm so sorry. I just wished you had given me a chance to explain. Can i explain now?" he asked. he had sadness in his eyes. I knodded at him to go on with his story.

"okay so she was my doctor for theses headaches i had been getting. I've never seen her tho because she has a stalker and we think that he is dangerous. Well whenever i met you i wanted to end things with her, but i also wanted to keep talking to her because i was the only person she had. You to talk to about the stalker. I swear to god y/n i wouldn't cheat on you."

i felt stupid. This is all my fault. i over reacted.  God why am i like this.

"spence hey. i'm sorry i overreacted. This isn't your fault okay?" i held onto his face. "i love you spencer reid." he looked up at me. i said the words. but it is true i have truly fallen for Dr. Spencer Reid.

"i love you too y/n." he replied. he gave me a soft kiss on the lips. i loved when he kisses me. His lips are so soft and he is very good at it.

A couple days later i was finally out of the hospital and was sent back to work.

I walked into the building to see a big sign that says 'welcome back' i was overwhelmed with join. Spence walked up to me and gave me a big hug.

"it's so good to have you back girl!" said jj and emily. I'm pretty sure they secretly have a thing going on but i'm not sure.

"welcome back agent." said hotch with a smile. things are pretty awkward between me and because of that whole um incident...

"y/n come here." said reid he pulled me aside. Everyone was watching. "y/n y/m/n y/l/n will you do me the great honors and be my girlfriend?" i kissed him and told him yes.

morgan came over to us. "hey pretty boy you finally got your self a girlfriend." he rubbed reid's head. "omg finally i've been waiting for this for like since the day you got here." said garcia with a big smile on her face.

"thank you guys it's so good to be back!"

the night ended and me and reid headed back to his place to watch a few movies. at least that's what he thinks we are gonna do.

we sat down on his couch and as soon as we sat down i started getting closer to him. I traced my finger across chest down to his pants.

"y/n? what are you doing?" he asked. I put my finger over his mouth.

Once my finger was down at his pants i start to undo them. He made himself more comfortable. i got into the floor down on my knees and began to pull down his pants slowly. I was trying to tease him. Once it was only his underwear i could see the outline of his boner. I pulled down his boxers to see his dick.

"come on y/n stop teasing me" he wined.

i put my mouth on his penis and started going up and down. making eye contact the whole time. he threw his head back in pleasure. I went slow then i started to speed up when i knew he was getting closer to cumming.

"f-fuck y/n that f-feels so g-good." he moaned.

I knew he was about to cum whenever he kept on throwing his head back. whenever he finished i licked it all up.

"your turn now" he said to me. he took off his shirt and pick me up and put me on the couch. "i have something special for you tonight." he explained. i was confused by what he meant by it but it turned me on.

when he came back to the couch he had a pink vibrator in his hands. he put it in me and and started it off slow.

"spence p-please faster." i moaned. and he did just that. he turned it on max speed. On top on that he was kissing my neck and rubbing my clit. He never turned it back down.

"are you going to cum for daddy?" he asked. "y-yes" i said. i was close and he knew it. He took the vibrator and replaced it with himself. Within seconds i was a moaning mess and i cummed.

After we were done he cleaned me up and took me into his room and i fell asleep in his arms.

Hey guys!! thank you for 230 reads like wtf!! and also sorry for not updating i've been having a lot more school work. hope you enjoyed.