The healing process~Kyman-Currently being updated

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"I just don't get it Kenny. I don't know how to feel around him anymore. Just when I think I can trust him, he goes and does something that makes me question if I could ever trust him in the first place. Do I give him my trust or not?"

I've healed partially from the incident. My stomach still hurts, but my headache has gone down and I can sit up now without the threat of puking. Kenny decided to come in and make sure I was okay during his study hall. He told me about how I'm the talk of the school at the moment, and how worried Stan is about me. That's reasonable, but I have bigger problems than petty school drama. I decided to ask Kenny for advice with Cartman. I mean, he and Cartman have always had a bond similar to mine and Stan's. He's probably one of the closest people to Cartman, after me obviously.

"Well, what specifically is making you doubt yourself? What are you afraid of?"

Kenny took his hood off to be heard more clearly. It helps when we're having serious conversations like this one. It seems like every conversation I've been apart of has been serious lately.

"I guess I'm kind of scared of becoming a monster. I'm scared he's gonna turn me into a monster, like he did to Heidi. I don't want to get hurt and I wish I knew how to handle this."

He didn't respond for a few seconds, then he took a seat on the bed I was on. I took this as he wanted to tell me something important and sat up straight, preparing to listen to any and everything he has to say.

"Listen dude, I can't say for sure what's gonna happen here. Usually, I'm pretty good at calculating how today's gonna turn out, but I know what you have with Cartman is good. Every other relationship Cartman's had was noticeably problematic in one way or another. He was really good at tricking the ones close to him to do as he wanted, but you never did that. Somehow, you got under his skin, and into his head more than once. You can get through to him like no one else can, and I've seen you do it. The thing is Kyle, it doesn't matter what happens between you two. You could end up like Heidi, and you couldn't. It doesn't matter when it comes to you because you're not the type to just give up on something you believe in. Even when we were little, you had faith in Cartman. You believed that he was capable of changing, or having a little good in him, even when nobody else did. Sure, he failed you time and time again, but you never gave up. It's years later and you still haven't given up."

After he was done with his rant, he took a breath. Then he glanced at the clock and threw up his hood. The last thing he said was muffled, but I've known Kenny long enough to understand what he said.

"Cartman really cares about you, in a way I've never seen from him before. Not just now, even when we were small. I'd say he's genuinely trying to be a better person for you. Give him that chance. If it doesn't work,, then I bet you'll just bounce back again. You didn't stop when he was gone without a trace, and you still won't stop."

I started to process what he told me as he began to leave back to class.

"One more thing." I looked up to face him. It wasn't hard to tell he had a grin on his face. "Thanks for bringing my best friend back."

Kenny's earlier advice motivated me to talk to the only person that has any idea what I'm handling right now. It may not be the best option, but any advice is noteworthy at this point. I need to know exactly how he acted back then, and how to avoid it.

Once school ended the nurse let me go so I could get home and rest. Stan and Cartman met up with me at my locker and basically this is how it went.

"Kyle, how are you feeling?" Cartman asked first. I opened my mouth to answer, but Stan interrupted me with his own question.

"Do you want me to go home with you?". Before I could answer that question, Cartman asked another one.

"You want me to carry your things to the bus?"