Behind the End - Herophine

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We spent the whole night chatting, telling funny things, talking about what was happening in the world, for a moment we forgot about the movie, the rush of the shootings, we were on the same mood, until someone talk:

"It's so busy that you can't even go out to enjoy..."

"It's true, our children who pay for it, who go from the set to the room... They can't enjoy some clubs here in Bulgaria..."

Then I look from the corner of my eye to Jô, who looks back at me. Then Chance says:

"But even if we wanted to go out and we had time for this... With this pandemic it is difficult, isn't it?"

Then I hear mine... I hear Jô talking back:

"True... But would be good to do that... It would be..." I answer back, without thinking:

"Would be really good... We missed going out, enjoying, seeing people..."

"New people, right?" She counters.

"Yeah! New people, having new experiences, do you know?"

"Yeah! I know... I know! I agree with you Hero!"

"I'm glad we agreed with that!"The table looked at her, and when I spoke everyone looked at me, it looked like a Ping Pong game, each answer looked at who "played" it, Jô provoked me, then I provoked her back and I think everyone was noticing the mood that was forming between us...

"So... Who want dessert? Dessert Pizzas will already be served!" Castille speaks by cutting us both off.

"Hey man, what was that?" Chance in a worried tone turns to me whispering:

"Nothing, she's teasing me..."

"Teasing you? Hmm... I thought you both had nothing..." I look at him, and when I do that I realize he was almost laughing, so I can't hold a smile and I have a little laugh too, yeah... I think he got it!

"We have nothing!"

"I know... I'll pretend to believe it! But whatever is going on between you both... Know that... I ship!!"

"No chance, Chance!"

"You both made this! Now you can take it... Who told you to be so shippable like that, since the first movie I noticed only because the way you looked to each other... Not like friends look... There is no way not to notice!"

"You know what?! Shall we change the subject?"

So we focused on the subject of the table that now talked about Christmas. We spent a long time talking about the holiday season that was approaching and everything that still had to come, when I look at Jô and realize that she was saying goodbye to the people closest to her at the table, I think she was already going to sleep:

"Guys, I'm going to lie down, enjoy the rest of the night, okay?" She waved to everyone, looked at me for milliseconds and left.

I stayed a little longer with everyone there, so I believe that about twenty minutes later I also said goodbye, I looked at Chance who was staring at me with a little closed eyes and a small smile in the corner of his mouth, the same expression that Dylan used when he noticed something between me and Jô...

Before going to my room, something was pulling me to the door next to mine, I knocked on her room... Nothing. I said softly:

"Hey. It's me..."

Nothing. I was already heading towards my room when she opened it sleepy and with her hair all messed up:

"Hero?"

"Hi, are you okay?"

"Yes... Did something happen?"

"No... I saw that you came back earlier and I came to know if you were okay..." She looks at me, I notice that her look changes...

"I'm fine... Just a little tired from the week..."

"Got it..." I look at her. 

"Jô..."

"Hero... We better not start this anymore... It's all right, good..."

"I just want..."

"We tried but from the beginning we knew it wasn't going to happen, we were stubborn, and..."

Those words entered me like stabbed, but deep down I knew she was right... Different countries, we have chemistry, VERY chemistry, we like each other, VERY MUCH, but still, all these feelings could just be a big mess.

"I think we get confused with the Anna's story and..."

She didn't stop talking, and she looked at me, she was serious, and I just wanted her, without her realizing I was already closer to her, without her waiting I grabbed her, kiss her and feel her arms hugging my neck, and she corresponded to my kiss, it was slow, I felt her breath, I squeezed her, bringing her closer and she let me, I think we missed. We kissed for a while, not bothering because we were making out in the middle of the hotel corridor. I enjoyed every second with her, until she pushed us away:

"Hero..."

"Sorry, I couldn't take it..."

"But I was just talking about that!"

"I know! I couldn't..."

"What about what you said of stay with new people?"

"Hey... I am asking to you about this!"

"What about the girl?"

"What about Carter?"

"Carter?! Are you crazy?"

"No... Only..."

"Hero, good night, tomorrow we have a lot of scenes to shoot so we better go to sleep."

My polluted mind already imagined sleeping with her as before.

"Each one in your room."

"That's what I thought..." I smile and she smiles too, her mouth was still red from our kiss.

"Yeah... So, goodbye then..." 

She was still smiling closing the door, I couldn't get the smile off my face until I lay on the bed, that kiss, this chemistry, I just wanted to understand all we were feeling, do I need to be with someone else to understand this? Just getting away from her is not working... Staying away from her, just makes me more attracted to her...