HIRAETH - OBEY ME

ONE SHOT - BEELZEBUB

dedicated to Straberryxx

a remorseful Beelzebub's view
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YOU FELT something was squirming next to you and it woke you up.

You rubbed off the sleepiness from your eyes as you glance at the person who had disrupted your sleep.

You felt a rising panic when you saw Beelzebub shivering as tears rolls down his cheeks.

Placing a hand on his shoulders, you try waking him up - which he did, thankfully.

"Beel, bubby, what happened?" you questioned as you caressed his arms, trying to calm down the demon.

You could see the shine in his eyes, but it wasn't Beelzebub's usual sparkle - it was because of the sadness in his tears. His brows were furrowed as if he was in pain.

The state of Beelzebub made your heart break into many pieces - in so many ways - you pulled him into a hug and he returned it, but tighter.

"I dreamt of her," he whispered.

"Lilith?"

The mention of her name made him flinch as if it would hurt him physically.

But emotional pain is different to handle.

You sighed, drawing your hand to comb his hair with your fingers.

"Do you want to talk about it? It's fine if you don't want to."

Beelzebub shook his head as his grip around you loosened. You heard him sniff with his face burrowed on your chest.

"No, I want you to know, (name)," he looked up to you and smiled. "You have always been there for me, I'm really thankful for that."

You kissed his cheeks, "Oh, Beel, you know I will always be here for you, right?"

The boy chuckled but then his frown has appeared once again. He lowered his gaze to the ground and went quiet for a second.

After a few moments, what he spoke had made your heart ache once again.

"One day, you won't be here. And I will be fully alone until you come back. It might take years, even centuries for you to return. By the time that happens, do you actually believe I can handle myself while you're gone?"

You didn't talk, didn't comfort him. You let his emotions out first. After all, Beelzebub rarely opens up until it has gotten worse. You only have on role at this moment, and that is to be with him.

"I barely handle myself when you're here. What more when you're gone? When I can't even feel your soul lingering here? That would be pure hell. I would be alone, with these thoughts - these regrets - and you're not there to be with me after those seconds, minutes of agony."

You felt drops on your hand. You tried to stay still, because it would mean a lot to Beelzebub if you stay quiet and listen to his remorse.

"I dreamt about Lilith and Belphie. Remember that I saved my little brother and left my little sister? In my dream, I lost the both of them. And I could see the two, looking at me in disappointment. Like I was anything but a brother."

Silence passed by when he started crying, it was the noise of him whimpering and letting out all the pain. This was finally your chance to comfort him or everything will turn worse.

"Beel," you placed your palm between the both of his cheeks and raised his head to see his eyes.

"I know that Lilith might have been scared at that time, Belphie and you, too. But Belphegor is here. And I know Lilith is happy with that, that you aren't alone. Because I know that Lilith doesn't want her big brother to be lonely."

You smiled softly. Beelzebub stared at you for a short while.

He sniffed, "but if I was strong enough to save her too..."

"You're strong, Beel," you kissed his chin, "you have grown so much stronger; more than you could ever know."

"Why? How are you so sure about that?"

You gave his forehead a kiss, then his eyelids; next his nose; and lastly, his lips.

"Because I know you can save me and protect me. Moreover, you are here with me - your presence alone shows how strong you are." you softly murmured while caressing his cheek with your thumb.

You grinned at him, and Beelzebub felt like he saw the light in the darkness of his mind.

You were his lighthouse, guiding his ship to safety.

"You're a good person, Beel. And being good means you have a strong will to help people."

His lips curled up into a faint smile. He held your hand so delicately. His lips reached to your knuckles and it made you giggle.

"(name)," he called out, yet before you could give an answer - the boy dived on top of you as his weight pressed on your body.

The both of you giggled while he showered you with kisses.

"I love you," he gasped as he kissed your lips.

You held his face and looked at his eyes that showed so much affection. You believe your own showed the same emotion.

"You're my other half."

Beelzebub stared at you, his fingers lacing with yours. The warmth of his breath felt comforting on your lips.

You decided to picture this moment in your mind - something to remember as days come by.

The boy you're in love with, just as he is to you. In this scene of the moonlight hitting the purple shade of the curtain - he looked surreal.

With that, he smiled ever so gently and said;

"You complete me."

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unrevised.♡