Could it be? - Thomas Sangster fanfic

What now?!

- the day after -

Melanie's POV:

I had totally freaked out. After I had ran out of the cafetaria, I wasn't able to face Thomas again today. Luckily we hadn't had any classes anymore together that day. I had classes with Lizzy and Charlotte. They kept asking what was wrong, but I just shrugged it of. I didn't want to talk about it.

Now the day after Thomas told me.. He had send me several messages and had tried to call me about 10 times, but I didn't answer them. What was I suppose to say? Annie had recognize my strange behavior too. And right now she keeps asking me what's going on.
I didn't want to tell her.
" Is it about Dan?" She asked.
" No."
" School?"
I shook my head.
" Charlotte?"
" No."
" Lizzy?"
I shook my head again.
" Thomas?"
My eyes spread open. I stared at her for a few seconds. " N-no." I said and looked back at my books.
" It's totally about Thomas! You can't hide it anymore!" She said with a grin on her face.
I didn't react on it.
" Tell me!"
" My lips are sealed.." I stated while looking in my books.
" Tell me.. Tell me... Tell me!" She kept on asking, it's starting to annoy me.
I growled. " Allright! Are you gonna stop whining if I tell you?"
She nodded with a huge smile on her face.
I sat up straight on my bed. She was sitting on my desk chair; curious on what I was about to tell her.
I sighed. " Yesterday Thomas told me that..." I replayed the moment in my head again, mentally freaking out before telling her. " ... he's been in love with me for over 3 years."
She smirked.
I looked confused at her. " What are you smirking at? It isn't funny! I totally freaked out!"
The smirk was faded from her face, but she still looked amused. " That isn't new, Mel. It's SO obvious!"
I looked at her with a 'are you kidding me' face. So everybody knew, except me. Just great!
" Is it really that obvious? How?!" I asked.
Annie shook her head. " Off course it's obvious. The way he looks at you already says enough. He always stands up for you! And when you show up, he can't keep his eyes of you with a blush and grin on his face. I already saw it for a year, Mel. So did Ava."
I never noticed the way he looked at me or the blush on his cheeks when he saw me. But also: I'm stupid when it comes there!
I remained quiet for a few minutes, before Annie spoke again. " You were really oblivious to everything, didn't you?"
I nodded. " I was.... Why did nobody tell- " I cutted myself of. Somebody did tell me. Charlotte and Lizzy. They had told me a few weeks ago that they assumed he was in love with me.
" You wouldn't have believed me anyway. And besides, do you feel the same way or not?"
" I-I really don't know, Annie. I don't want to hurt him, but I-I really don't know how I feel. I've never thought about him that way. What am I suppose to do now? He keeps calling me on my phone after I ran away after he told me." I was freaking out again, pacing from the one side to the other side of my room.
" He's your best friend, Melanie. You can't ignore him forever. You're good with words. Go talk to him."
I nodded a bit nervous. " Yeah I should do that."
I stormed of the stairs and took my jacket. I opened the door and was about to ran of, but then my mom came. " Where are you going?"
" To Thomas' house. For a project. I should be home around 5." I lied.
Mom seemed to believe it. " Okay.. Good luck with the project, sweety."
" Thanks mom." I walked out of the house and walked with a fast pace.
I rang the bell. As usual, Ava opened the door. She didn't had an amused face, like she always has when I come around.
" Hi.." She said.
" Hi Ava. Can I come in?"
" Sure." She said and letted me.
It remained silent for a few seconds.
" I guess you've heard about what happened yesterday."
" Ooh yeah.. He told me." Ava said. His sister is the only one, except for me, who he tells everything to.
" Is he upstairs?"
She nodded. " Yeah.. he is. You can go if you want." She said and went back in the living room.
I sighed before walking up the stairs. I knocked on his door. " Come in.." I heard the crack in his voice. It's probably too late, I already hurt him. Something I never wanted to do.
I walked in the room and immediately closed the door behind me. He looked up at me. His eyes looked different, they looked so sad. And it's all my fault! I need to fix this. How? I really don't know. Many people say I'm good with words, so I guess I'm going to find a way to make it a little better, right?

I take a seat next to him on his bed. He hadn't said a word since I came in. I took his hand in mine.
" Thomas.."
He pulled his hand away. Clearly he felt broken.
" You made me very clear by walking away yesterday and not returning my phone calls that you don't feel the same way. And I think I must except it you never will." He stated.
His words hurt me, but the thruth always seems to hurt. I probably never will, no matter how hard I want it too. I haven't admit it, but I wish I felt the same way as he does for me; just to make him feel better and because I care a lot about him, since he's my best friend. But it is just a thing you can't force.
" Thomas.. I freaked out. I didn't know what to say. I needed to be away from everything and everyone. I know I should've answered your phone call, but I guess I was just afraid that I might hurt you. Wich I probably already did, I figured." I sighed.
He looked at me, but he didn't speak.
" You can't accept me to feel the same way, Thomas. I accept how you feel, I really do. But you need to give me the time to figure out my feelings for you. "
He looked down. He stared at one place, wich meant that he was thinking. He always did that.

A few seconds later he looked up at me. A weak smile appeared on his face.
" You're right, Mel. I can't expect that from you. I really appreciate it that you accept my feelings. And I'll give you all the time you need to figure things out."
I smiled at him. He's such a understanding person. I like that about him.
" Thank you, Tommy. Thanks for understanding."
He took my hand in his. " Anytime, Mel. You're worth waiting for."
I know that he must feel a little broken inside, but that he won't show it to me.

I'm happy that our friendship isn't ruined. I don't know what I would ever do without him.
I'm not in love with him, but that doesn't mean I don't love him. He's my best friend after all.
I know he will always be there for me, like I will for him.