Gratsu oneshots!

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Hello, it is I. I've been updating a lot more recently. I'm very proud of myself. I'm behind in all my classes, but at least I'm updating. 

So uhhhh, I've had the beginning of this in my files for a while. Like years...aaaaand worked on it some more like a year ago then forgot about it. The day before yesterday I started working on it again, and tonight I finished it. The first little bit is in first-person, since I wrote like that years ago. >.> don't JuDgE mE. 

Also, this is my like second attempt at writing anal. I do not write smut, like ever. So, I am trying to practice and maybe get better. Idk. I didn't proofread this because it's like 1 am for me. 

I grew accustomed to our routine and to our relationship.

One of us insults the other, making the other mad which starts a fight, which leads to a guild brawl. Erza comes around, the brawl stops, Natsu and I pretend to be friends. Then the second she looks away we go back at it again.

Everyone in the guild knew we were rivals, we fought daily, so it doesn't take a scientist to figure that out. But what they didn't know was that every week we would meet. Typically, at a hotel, and a few times when Happy was out on a mission with someone else we'd meet at his place, sometimes if Juvia was gone, then we'd meet at my place.

On these nights we'd let off some steam. We agreed that what we did on these nights meant absolutely nothing. And in the beginning, everything was fine. But everything changed when Natsu walked into the guild, and a barely noticeable hickey could be seen under his scarf. A pit formed in my stomach, and bile rose in my throat when I saw hickeys that weren't mine. When the feeling subsided, I was left confused about what I was feeling and why I felt it.

And eventually, my sixteen-year-old self decided to ask Macao what I was feeling. And with an embarrassed look, I explained to him that feeling I got. Macao had asked when I had felt it, and I told him, 'Whenever I see that they've been with someone else that's not me.'

Macao had laughed and clapped my back and said the words that would haunt me for the rest of my life. "Looks like you've got a crush!" I tried to nod my head but all it did was make the spinning in my head grow worse. I forced myself to listen as he explained that I was jealous.

It's been a year and the feelings still haven't gone away. I have tried sleeping with other people but all I could see was Natsu throwing his head back, face flushed and eyes squeezed shut as I relentlessly pounded into him.

No matter who I slept with none of them could compare to Natsu, and in the end, I still left unsatisfied and wanting more, wanting Natsu.

I never even considered confessing my feelings to Natsu because I knew that it wouldn't end well. We'd go back to just being rivals and nothing more, and I don't think I could go on with only the memories of his burning touches.

Because in the end I knew I loved Natsu Dragneel and I don't think I will ever stop.

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After a night of drinking and mostly fucking someone senselessly, Natsu opened the door and was greeted with the surprising sight of Happy curled up next to his scarf on the couch. Natsu always kept the scarf at home, not wanting it to smell like alcohol or sex.

Grabbing some clothes, Natsu walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower. Sighing Natsu relaxed under the warm spray, his mind drifting every now and then.

Stepping out of the shower after a half hour or so, Natsu quickly dried off and got dressed. Depositing his clothes in the dirty clothes bin, before walking over to where Happy was resting peacefully.