Cloudy Souls (A JackSepticEye Fanfiction)

Chapter 13

We couldn't sleep last night. We couldn't even close our eyes. We couldn't even think of the thought of sleep.

The pillow was soaked with tears, which didn't help. Sean silently gazed at the ceiling, showing no emotion. I calmed down after a while, but I still twisted and turned in bed from the shock.

Eventually I shuffled to the bathroom to wash my face. As I ducked my head up after splashing cold water over it, Sean stood beside me.

"I guess we can't sleep." He mumbled.

I nodded. The thought of having a growing human being in your body creeped the hell out of me. "What now?"

He shrugged, trudging back to the bed and pulling out his phone. "It's 3 in the morning, and you got work tomorrow."

"Sean... can I just call in sick?"

He ignored my question and continued scrolling through his phone.

I crawled in beside him, facing the wall. I don't know why it came in mind, but I daydreamed of the comments from that tweet. 'I bet 50 bucks she's a slut', 'She better be a good girlfriend', 'Sean you don't need a girlfriend! She's not worth it' and so on. Maybe I'm not a good girlfriend. I bit my lip to keep myself from tearing up, letting out a sniffle here and there.

I hear Sean sigh and the rustling of bed sheets. He faced the other way, staring at a picture of his family. My heart sank and my eyes welled up. This is our fault. To keep from breaking down once more, I frowned at the other side of the room, somehow miraculously drifting off into sleep.

*****

I woke up to an alarm beeping straight in my ear. I slammed the alarm hard enough to make Sean jolt. It's 6 AM and the sunlight filtered into the room.

Instead of the usual "good morning" from Sean, he grunts and heads straight to his computer.

"Sean... good morning?" I threw the blanket off me and sit on the edge of the bed. "At least be in a good mood."

"How can I?" He muttered. "Do you even know what happened last night?"

"You think I'm stupid? Of course, but we can't just sit and pout forever!" I retorted.

"Listen to me!" Sean barked. "Why don't you leave me alone and go do something worthwhile than to bug me?"

"You're one of the only people I can rely on here!" I scream. "You're the only one that comforts me, and you're not doing a good job."

"Just go," his voice sounds defeated, yet full of grudge.

"You're right, I've got better things to do." I shake the drawer open and dig through my clothes. I dressed in my casual clothing. "See you later, Sean." I stomp out the bedroom, grabbed my keys and my bag, and rushed out the door.

I flew to the park, where it was fresh and peaceful. Everyone and the environment were in a good mood, and the colours were bright and jolly. I took out my sketchpad to see my unfinished drawing of Sean smudged and smeared across. I didn't know whether to feel angry or sad or whatever.

I spent the next two hours carefully drawing a bed with me and Sean in it from last night. Our backs were facing each other and we both had a worried expression. The blankets covered half our body. Maybe I should add some colour- nah, that'll take away the sense of gloom from the picture. After shading it in and adding more details, the drawing was finished.

I felt a tight grip on my shoulder. I turned to see Sean, showing a grim expression. "I've been looking for you."

I just turned back to my sketchpad in response, not knowing what to say. I felt his presence sitting beside me. We just sat there for a few moments silently.

"I'm sorry," he leans forward and rubs his face. "I'm an idiot and I wasn't aware of what I was doing..."

My eyes gaze deep into his, admiring his apology. "I just need someone who can comfort me and understand me... I'm sorry as well. You're going through as much stress and pressure as I am, and clearly I didn't see that at the time."

He nods and pulls me into a long kiss. His lips tasted like sugar and my heart pounded every second I spent with him. We pulled back and I rested my head on his shoulder.

"I hope they don't take this park down." Sean points out.

"Yeah. After all, this place holds many memories of us."

"That reminds me, you got college in a week, correct?"

I nodded, and frowned. College is not a happy place.

"If anyone bothers you, you let me know, okay? I'll beat the living shit out of them." He calmly said, putting his arm around me. "I need to vent out the pressure on someone else, anyway."

I scooted closer to him, adoring the scenery. Kids cheered and jumped with their toys and kites. The summer sun glimmered on the lake where teenagers threw rocks as far as they could. The adults gleefully chatted in picnic tables and benches. A sigh of relaxation escaped my lips as I cuddled close with Sean.

I better enjoy this moment while I could, 'cause pretty soon I have to think about college and all its glory. I'm worried about not only college but how I'll be able to handle the judgement of others when they find out I'm pregnant.