Alexandra, Alex as her friends call her is 16 years old and she never met her father. She lives with her mother in a nice neighborhood. Alex just build her own boutique workshop.
Her mother is her everything, her whole world. She never got to meet...
I rushed to my mom without thinking twice. She was on the floor, blood all around her and she was lying there on the ground. I took her head gently with both my hands and put it on my lap.
"Heeeeeeeeelp! Please someone heeeelp !"I yelled at the top of my lungs.
"Mom hang in there help is coming for you..." My mom looked at me in the eyes still struggling to not cry out in pain, she gently stroke my cheek in an attempt to dry my tears.
"Ba-baby... I don't ne-ed hel-p. I won't ma-make it." I wanted to scream at her that she was being silly and that she was going to be alright, but I couldn't speak so I just shook my head as the tears ran freely down my cheeks.
"Lexy, love I wanted to ...have more ti-me and maybe so-someday tell you e-every-thing. B-But now I don- don't have the time... You need to find y-your fa-ther, tell him I for-forgive him and that I n-never stop- stopped lo-loving him. You have brothers ba-baby. Ax... Liam... Mase... Noah... Oli... Jamy...Log...Tom..." She struggled to get the words out and most of them I could barely understand.
My vision was blurred by the tears, now. The feelings to overbearing for me to handle. I want to scream at her for thinking she will die, I want to scream at her for not having time to tell me everything, I want to scream at God for taking the only person I love in this world from me. The rage was burning under my skin begging me to destroy anything on my path. I felt my heart break at the sight of the most wonderful woman I ever knew drifting in and out of consciousness. My mother, my anchor, the only family I ever had is leaving and I can't do shit to stop it. I want to run for help, but my legs could no longer support my weight.
And somewhere deep down, I know it would be useless,$. If she is about to leave me, I was not gonna leave her side. I won't lose the last moments I have with her away from her.
"Mom..." I try but I cant get any words out of my mouth. But I have to. " I will always Love you..."
"I will al-ways love you too my swe-et gir-girl. To Infi-nity"
"And beyond" I completed. I caressed her face and somewhere in me, I found the little voice I could muster for one last promise. "I will find them, mom. I promise I will find them and tell them all how much you loved them."
"Tha-thank you, ba-by. I will be wi-th you e-every step of the w-way." She then closed her eyes but the small smile never left her face. She looked peaceful now, almost as if she was just asleep and If it wasn't for the lack of her breathing movements and the lack of a pulse, I would think she was simply sleeping.
After what felt like hours, and my tears dried I heard our room door open and someone walked inside. A few seconds later, I heard someone suck in a breath and the steps came closer and closer. I didn't bother to tear my eyes from my mom's body nor stop caressing her face. I couldn't care less if it was only a shell now, that shell belonged to the most beautiful soul I had ever met.
I could hear voices around me and I knew someone started to talk to me, but I couldn't make out what they were saying. It's like suddenly my oh so high IQ dropped to 60 or below and I couldn't even understand simple words.
After that moment, it was all a blur. I was pulled from my mom's body, and the next thing I know I was in being brought to my bed. I have no idea what time or day it is, I feel numb all over. That is the last thing I remember before my eyelids closed and darkness welcomed me with open arms.
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The days went by in a blur after that night. I would wake up just to go back to sleep after using the bathroom. My mother's last words kept ringing in my ears, it felt like she was whispering in my ear "find them for me, baby". I could still hear her voice as if she was never gone and still with me "I will be with you every step of the way". I hear the door of my hospital room open and close accompanied by the footsteps of someone walking closer to me. I turn to the noise just to see nurse Rose come closer to me with a water bottle in hand.
"Hey sweety how are you?" She looked at me with what I would describe as a glint of hope in her eyes.
I tried to talk but my throat felt like sandpaper. I hadn't made a sound since that fateful day and I was starting to feel the effects of it now. My eyes feel scratchy and I can feel the need to cry but no tears come, Well I guess I'm finally out of those.
"Here have some water, ou haven't drank a drop since the other day and if it wasn't for the IV you still have on you would be severely dehydrated by now sweet pea." She got a cup and poured me some water in it. "Here it should help. So I'm glad to see you're doing better. Can I get you something else?"
"Sorry, how long has it been since ....?" I asked still not ready to say what happened out loud.
"It has been two days since you reacted to anything sweetpea. But I'm happy to see you are finally doing a bit better."
"Yeah, how does it work now? I mean I have a father somewhere, maybe he could take me in?"
"Dear we are still searching for him. We thought we had found him but the only men that we found, doesn't have a daughter. We will keep searching though."
"And until then, what?"
"Until then you will go to an orphanage and possibly find a family that will look after you until you complete your 18th birthday."
"When are social services coming to get me?"
"When you get discharged tomorrow. Are you still in pain?"
I laughed sarcastically "That's actually a good question. But no I'm not in any kind of physical pain, thank you."
"Then I'll just get you something to sleep now so you can get some rest. You need it." Before I could say anything else she puts something on my IV. Shortly after I started to feel my eyelids shut and I didn't resist the darkness that pulled me into a comforting embrace where pain couldn't reach me.
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I literally cried writing this chapter. It was really hard to write it and not put myself inside Alex's character since I had to write what she was feeling.
Yeah funny how I let myself become one with the characters right?
Anyways Something funny (Not funny for me but you'll understand me). I was crying while writing and drank a bit of water, well bad choice. I somehow almost choked on the water and it came out through my mouth and nose.
Yeah, I know really funny to see not so funny to experience though.
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What will happen to Alex now?
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⚜Lara⚜
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