beyond this

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We have lived in spokane for at least seven months now and things are going good again we have gotten comfortable with are new area and we are enrolled in the new school. I did not think there was anything that could happen that would send are world tumbling down no more drama no nothing boy was I wrong.

Me and Edward were in our room laying down when Alice ran into the room .'' What's wrong ?'' I looked between them ,they were having one of their silent conversations but when I asked i did not get a answer it worried me Edward got up and punched a hole through the wall .'' What do you mean?'' he looked over at Alice .'' I can not see Bella anymore she jumped off a cliff into the water during a pretty bad storm then everything went black .'' I looked between them both we panicked and emotional .It hurt to see ,I understood that bella was a big part of both of their lives , I knew that Alice kept tabs on Bella but with Edward acting so angry and emotional it made me think that maybe he did not love me as much as he loved her even if he thought he loved me maybe I was just his option because i was the safer choice .The one he did not have to worry about breaking .

'' maybe she was saved and I just didn't see it call charlie .'' Alice took out her cell phone and gave it to him .The whole time I sat there just watching everything unravel .'' Hello , is charlie there ?'' Edward spoke stiffly. I heard a voice say through the phone that he was at the funeral .That is when Edward crushed the cell phone in his bare hands .'' let's go see what's going on .'' I told him heading over to the closet i started throwing clothes onto the bed .'' No ,'' edward shook his head and grabbed my hand to stop me .'' yes Edward you apparently care you want to go then we are going to see what the fuck is going on !'' I yelled pulling my arm away from him and continued throwing clothes onto the bed .''Put the clothes into bags .'' I left the room to Lisa's room.'' Get your shit together we are going to forks .'' I told her .

less than a hour later we were in our car driving to forks Alice and lisa drove in there own car as lissa had said it she didn't want to be around all the drama so she would stick with Alice while we got everything handled .'' when we get there if Bella is okay ,I want you to be with her .'' I said as we drove Edward swerved into the next lane to the side of the road .

''Edward !" I had clasped my heart .'' Some people are not indestructable !'' I breathed heavy in and out .'' Why would you say that ?'' he raised his voice at me .He had never talked to me like that .'' Because you love her more than you love me .'' That was so hard to say aloud it broke my heart just saying it but it was best to comes to terms with it now so I was ready for the break up when we got to forks . ''That is not true , I told you that before .'' he looked at me .'' I know ,but think about it .'' i sighed .'' did you really love me more or did you think I was a better choice just because i am not a fragile as her ?'' I saw something flicker in his eyes it was all I needed to know I was right . So the rest of the ride was a silent one .

'' I will be right back .'' Edward dropped me off at the old house and went to go to Bella's .'' I never thought you guys should have been together in the first place .'' Lisa told me while we sat in the house lucky the cullens left their furniture at the house knowing they would come back sooner or later to forks .'' What do you mean by that ?'' Alice was not here she had gone to join the Edward at Bella's .'' I always thought he was too good for you , too good for that swan girl too .'' she rolled her eyes .But I did not get mad she had spirit building up in her and I could not blame her for what she said .'' I am perfect now that you are not .'' she smiled and it just sent chills down my spine . '' Lissa snap out of it .'' I looked at her and closed my eyes trying to take all of it out once I was sure I did lisa shook her head back and forth .'' Oh my god Rose ,I am so sorry I don't know why I said that .''she covered her face with her hands .'' it is okay .'' I pulled her a tight hug pretending like it nothing but it was darkness was getting to her more than I new .Effecting her attitude the kind gentle hearted lissa was beginning to fade away and I was scared . Would it have been better if I had stayed at the academy .would they know something I don't about helping her .Maybe just maybe had been wrong .

after they had been gone for a few hours I got lissa and we took a little car was tourturing me not knowing if Bella was alright or if she was if Edward was going to be with her .I knocked on the door adn i guy who looked a lot like jacob asnwered the door ,but this couldnt be jacob this guy looked like he could be twenty was like seven feet tall and he was gorgaus . Before Jacob had been a cute kid but now he just made me catch my breath and think things that I shouldn't .

Jacob just looked at me with this glazed over look and feel to his knees .'' Are you alright ?" I rushed to his side this sense of panic ran through me worried if he was okay I felt like I had a heart attack the way my heart beat . I placed my hand on his shoulder .

Dont have to worry about that no more.'' Edward said walking to the door and standing next to Jacob .'' what do you mean ?'' It took all of me to look away from Jacob .