beyond this

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It has been a month since me and lissa moved to forks and it has become a real home to us . we are always at the cullens me hanging out with edward or emmett sometimes just talking to Rosalie while lissa and alice are becoming real close too .

at the moment me and edward were watching lissa show alice how she makes a plant glow and me and jasper were right there to help if any dark feelings started to arise .with her always around jasper who could help with her emotions i felt more confident leaving lissa .'' come on I want to show you something .'' Edward grabbed my hand and lead me to a diffrent part of the house where he kept his piano .'' I wrote a new song .'' he sat down on the music bench putting me down next to him .

I watched as edwards fingers glided on the piano almost as if he was not touching it an his song was beautiful . '' That was amazing.'' I smiled .'' I think it is my best yet .'' Edward looked down upon the piano .'' What have you decided to call it ?" i looked at him .'' dark beauty .'' he got up from the bench leaving it at that .

was he talking about me or rather just the darkness he seemed to feel consumed him ,maybe he was talking about bella the love of his life .'' wait .'' I followed Edward back towards the living room .'' will you teach me how to play the piano ?'' I didn't have anything romantic in mind , I was not trying to get any closer to him or anything .I really did want to learn how to be able to play and compose beautiful pieces like Edward .'' Really?'' he rose a eyebrow .'' Yes, and I am a little insulted that you would look at me with such surprise .'' I frowned at him but i couldn't hold back my smile .Edward was so easy to mess with he did take things very literal . ''Okay I will teach you .''he walked right back over to the piano .'' first you have to learn the keys .'' he pointed out where i could find c on any keyboard therefore find the rest of the keys .Then he taught me about the different octaves .'' will you teach me to play something now?'' i asked impatiently .'' you have to have patience .'' Edward grinned at me.'' so i will teach you a beginners piece tomorrow .'' he walked away from me .'' you asshole .'' I yelled running behind and jumping onto his back .

He grabbed me and pulled me off so I was right in front of him ,He pressed me against the wall we were face to face inches apart he looked at me like he was going to lean in and kiss me but we were interrupted by emmett ,he looked between us with this big grin .'' I was coming to tell you that dinner was done ,but i can go tell esme you are too busy to eat .'' emmett's voice boomed .'' no ,I am coming .'' I looked into edward's eyes it took a moment but he released me and disappeared .'' move .'' I pushed emmett really having no effect on him .

I ate slowly thinking about what had almost happened ,I didn't understand that if Edward loves bella with all his soul how he could even think about kissing me .It was him who made the move not me I wouldn't do that . I was glad we had not kissed though ,I would have felt bad ,me and bella were next door neighbors and Edward was hers.

'' lissa are you ready to go ?'' I went back out to the living room .'' yeah .'' lissa looked at my face she could tell something was wrong .'' I will see you tomorrow .'' lissa hugged alice good bye .

When we got home I headed right up to bed to my surprise Edward was in my room .'' Rose ,I do not know what it is ,but I have strong feelings for you and this is tourting me inside so i just have to do this once and get it out of my system .'' Edward pulled me into his arms and kissed me passionately his hands wrapped tightly around my waist where there was pressure but not really pain , I wrapped my arms around his neck bringing him even closer to me .I wanted Edward so badly it hurt ,no matter how close he was I felt like he was not close enough .

It was me who broke the kiss stupid lungs I needed to breath .''I think that I am falling in love with you Rose Hathaway .'' Edward leaned his forehead against mine .'' I hear that a lot .'' I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him again .

''Rose ,'' Edward sighed pulling away from me .'' I am lost ,you are like no one I have ever met before when I am with you things are so natural yet i cannot imagine my life without Bella ,I feel like if i lose her I will loose a part of myself .'' He explained which I knew was coming . '' I understand .'' It took a lot of me to say so .'' you and bella are soul mates so just ignore whatever feelings you have for me because you two are meant for each other.'' I smiled meekly and he kissed me lightly one more time before disappearing out my window.

I had just gone over it in my head when I was eating at the cullens I knew better than that it was not right that we had kissed for anyone if Bella found out not that i really care about her but i do care about her just because she is important to Edward and it hurt me because of how much I have come to care for Edward to know he loved her with his essence while he had some attraction to me that was of no importance . I am not one to cry or be emotional at all I think crying is a weakness but hey what am i supposed to do ? i was emotionally drained at the moment .