Lips Of An Angel JJK 🔞

Nineteen

To say I'm devastated doesn't even begin to describe how I'm feeling right now. I feel empty, useless, used. Second best.

But I also feel anger, resentment and an overwhelming feeling of wanting to seek out revenge and maybe see blood. But I need to be smart here. My relationship has been at the forefront of the tabloids since day one as if they have been willing it to fail. Well congratulations media, you won. I failed.

I failed to keep my husband satisfied so he felt the need to go behind my back.

He's been calling of course. But I just don't feel like hearing anymore lies at the moment, so I haven't been answering him. I will talk to him when I feel ready, not when he decides.

Jungkook hasn't left my room since the bomb dropped on our marriages. He's been sat silently on the edge of the bed letting me grieve my way. Which in the last hour has been a mixture of denial, screaming, cursing and crying.

But I can't shake the strange feeling I have deep inside of me. The feeling that tells me that this is not even close to how I felt the day Jungkook broke my heart.

Why is it that every time my world comes crashing down around me, he is somehow involved? I know that none of this is his fault, he's not the one fucking my husband. But his wife is, the wife we never would have even met if he hadn't decided to show up and enter my life again.

Watching him sitting there crying quietly to himself, I start to feel somewhat resentful towards him.

"Why are you crying? You knew about this all along?"

"I'm not crying about that." He sniffles, wiping his nose with his forearm. "I'm crying because seeing you this way is killing me."

"Killing you?!" I snap. "This is your fault!"

"My fault?!" He snaps back, standing to his feet. "How the hell is this my fault?"

"She's your wife! If you hadn't come back around this never would have even happened!"

"How the fuck have you come to that conclusion?!"

"You put her around my husband!" I point in his face as he steps towards me.

"I didn't guide his dick inside her!" He screeches, now inches from me.

"Shut up!" I grit, pushing him back.

"You shut up!"

With heavy breaths and flared nostrils, we stand staring at each other, both of us looking like we are about to brawl.

But instead, we laugh. We laugh about what we said, our fucked up situation and our childish argument over people who clearly aren't worth even arguing about.

"How the hell did we end up here?" He chuckles, flopping back down on my bed.

"Well." I shrug as I walk to sit beside him. "Apparently the universe hates me. I don't know why you're involved. But it seems like I'm not supposed to be happy."

"Hey." He says as he sits up. "Don't say that. You deserve all the happiness in the world."

"Then where is it?" I sigh, turning my head to the side to look at him.

Staring into each others eyes, our features remain soft as we scan each others faces. Looking at every intricate detail that we haven't seen up close in so many years. Not much has changed in him. He's matured of course and his jaw has a sharpness that could cut glass. But he still in a way, looks exactly like the 18 year old man that I absolutely adored.

And I did adore him. That's why it has been so hard to get over him. And I thought I had when I met Jin. But I didn't, I just put him aside. In a tiny little box for safe keeping.

"Did you mean what you said?" He whispers, pulling me from my thoughts.

"Did I mean what?" I frown, not failing to notice that he hasn't moved away. His face still inches from mine as his eyes flit all around my face, always making their way back to my eyes.

"That it's always been me"

"Jungkook." I shake my head, finally pulling my gaze away from him as I focus on the floor.

"I should go to bed." He says quietly as he stands. "And so should you. You have a press conference in the morning"

"I doubt I'll get much sleep anyway." I groan, throwing the cover back.

Walking to the door as I climb into bed, he turns to take once last look at me before reaching the door.

"If it's any consolation Y/N, I meant what I said. I do still love you, and I will always be there for you. Through anything." Pulling the door open, I watch as his shoulders drop before taking the first step.

The old me would have kept her mouth shut, the old happily married me would have just let him walk out looking miserable for fear of saying something that may be disrespectful to her husband. Well that ship has sailed, and the old me was the damn captain.

"Jungkook."

Turning at the sound of my voice, he lets go of the door letting it hit him slightly before leaning against it. Smiling over at him, I feel a certain carpe diem.

"I meant it too."

"Really?" He grins, stepping forward letting the door close fully once he's fully inside again, Taking large strides until he's at the foot of my bed. "Like really really meant it?"

"Yes." I laugh watching as he jumps on the spot clapping his hands in excitement, just like he used to as a kid.

Feeling a strange amount of butterflies in my stomach, I'm not sure if I'm hungry, nervous, excited or scared. I still need to deal with Jin, and ignoring his calls is not the way to do it. Because I know Jin, and if I continue to avoid him he will be on the next flight out here.

"I feel like I want to kiss you." He grins as he steps beside the bed looking down on me. "Like really kiss you, make up for all the years I've missed kissing you kind of kiss."

Leaning down towards me, my breathing becomes shallow as he rests his hands either side of my head. Gripping the quilt on top of me, I stare up at him, not sure what I should do.

"Can I kiss you Y/N?"

I'm soooo sleepy!!
Had a delivery arrive at 7am.
Who the fuck delivers parcels at 7am?!??!??

Anywho, next chapter on Friday. The chapter for All In is tomorrow. Has anyone started reading that yet?