The Secret - Camren

Part 8

Taylor and I fell asleep on the couch and didn’t wake up until Chris came home around ten. I put her to bed and crawled into my own. I wasn’t able to fall asleep until really late so I sent a text to Ally and Normani to let them know I won’t be going to school again but that I was still going to work because I skipped last night. To be honest I would have gone anyways but I couldn’t face Camila after she ran out on me. I had never been so embarrassed in my life. After she left Camila sent me a bunch of texts apologizing that she kissed me and that she ran out. Saying that she wish she could explain. She said that she wished things were different. But if she really liked me she wouldn’t have ran out like that. I don’t know what’s going on with her and Sofia but I couldn’t deal with it now.

I finally fell asleep and after 2 hours of sleep I brought my siblings to school, called mine and went back home to sleep. I woke up around noon and groaned when I looked at my phone. I had five new texts from Camila.

Camz: Lauren I’m so sorry

Camz: Please answer me Lolo I’m worried

Camz: Ugh I ruined everything!! I’m sorry

Camz: Lolo, please we need to talk

Camz: Okay, I know you’re mad but we have to work on our art project or we will fail, please answer me

I completely forgot about that project. I really couldn’t be near Camila right now. Just thinking about it made my heart hurt. I felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest. I hadn’t realized how much I liked her. I could really see myself falling for her but now thinking of her made me want to go back to my old ways and I couldn’t do that now. I have too many things to deal with.

I texted Camila back to set something up for our project.

Hi, I work every night but Friday. Is that okay?

Her answer came seconds later.

Camz: Omg, I was so worried about you. Yes that’s fine but we really need to talk. Can I come over after your work?

I don’t think that’s a good idea, I wouldn’t want you running out again

Camz: Lolo please! I want to explain

I’ll see you in class tomorrow and Friday you can come over after school. See you then

Camz: Lauren I’m really sorry

 I threw my phone across the room. I couldn’t deal with this right now. I got back into bed and cried for what felt like hours. I then realized that I was just like my mother and that killed me. I was not going to become her. I wasn’t weak like she was. I had to get up and be strong. So what if the first girl I ever saw a future with rejected me, that wasn’t going to turn me into a mess. I was stronger than that.

I got ready for work, picked up Taylor and we went to work. On nights the girls couldn’t babysit her I would set her up in one of the booths at the diner. All the waitresses loved her and she liked pretending to be a waitress. She even helped out sometimes, she was really cute and people usually gave her tips. She loved making her own money she always tried to give it to me to help with the bills but I wasn’t going to take her money.

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It was Friday and I hadn’t really spoken to Camila since Tuesday. I missed her. I still liked her so much and sitting next to her in class was becoming pure torture. She was just so pretty. Thinking about seeing her again in art today was giving me butterflies. Why did things have to be so complicated? What in the world could be so bad that she can’t just act on her feelings? She had said that night that she couldn’t do it again. What did she mean again? Sofia had said it too. She must have been with a girl before and Sofi had caught them or something. I couldn’t stop thinking about what they meant.