The better one wins her

To much hurt

// Logan thinking//

Cap.17

I left the beach after almost two hours. Now i'm driving to Anna's.
I knock on the door. Anna doesn't open the door, Christian does.

He looks at me intensely. Maybe is because i've been crying since Logan walked away from me on the beach.

CH: Clary what happened?

I couldn't take it anymore. I just break down right there. Christian comes and hugs me.

CH: Whatever it is going to be alright.
I'm here for you.
C: Thank you.
CH: Come on let's watch a movie.

He takes me to his room.

CH: Anna is with her partener doing a project or something.
C: It's ok.
CH: So what film?
C: Some comedy.
CH: Maybe Jumanji ?
C: The first one ?
CH: We can watch both.

We stay there for hours watching the film. When the we finish the second one i'm starting to get sleepy.

CH: Do you want to stay the night?
C: Yeah. But can i stay with you ? I don't feel like talking right now.
CH: Sure. I can sleep on the floor if makes you more comfortable.
C: No. We can share the bed. It wouldn't be the first time.
CH: If you feel comfortable that way.
C: You know i do.

He gives me one of his t-shirt and a pair of basketball shorts so i can sleep more comfortably. I change into it an go to the bed where he already is. 

CH: Don't worry about whatever you are thinking. Sleep and in the morning you can resolve it.

C: Thanks Christian. Goodnight.

CH: Good night.

I try to do what Christian said. It's hard. Could i have done things different? I hate to think that he is suffering and it's all my fault. Maybe he was too good to me. He deserves someone that loves him back. Not someone that is inlove with someone else.

// LOGAN'S P.O.V. //

I can't sleep. I have too much on my mind. It's almost 3am and i can't sleep. Tomorrow is saturday which is good. I have two days. Two days to convince the girl from my dreams to get back with me.

Shit

I JUST have two days.
I immediately get out of bed and go to my desk. I need a plan. This are the aspects that i need to put in.

- Somehing special,
- Admit that i was stupid,
- Say that is ok that she isn't ready to admite that she loves me.

But what if she doesn't love you ? Worse. What if she loves you as a friend?

I love her. I do. At least i think i do.
No no no. You love her. She is the only one that made you feel this way.
Since Mandy.

//END OF LOGAN'S P.O.V.

I wake up in Christian's room. He is still asleep. I try to get out of bed but when i do he wakes up.

C: Hi.
CH: Good morning.
C: I should get going.
CH: Do you need me to drive you home?
C: No. I have my car here.
CH: Bye.
C: Thanks.
CH: Anytime.

I go to my car. Thank god Anna wasn't home yet. She slept in her partener house.
I need to talk with Logan. We need to talk, soo i decide to call him.
It rings four times until he picks up.

L: Hi.
C:We need to talk.
L: Ok. Park in 10 minutes?
C: Sure. Sounds good.

I park the car in front of my house and start walking to the park. Arriving there i spot immediately Logan.

L:Hi.
C:Hi.
L: Can we walk while talking?
C: Sure.
L: Look, i'm sorry.
C: About?
L: Everything. I need to tell you something.
C: You can.
L: When i first got here you were the niciest person for me. You were there and i didn't think straight when i asked you out. I had recently broke up with a girl that i loved. We daited since freshman year. She was my bestfriend. When i first moved here i thought we could try a long distance relationship. She cheated on me . On the same week i ask you out. I really like you and i'm sorry. I really like you but now i know. I love you. As a friend. Say something. Are you mad?

C: You changed me. I was this really insecure girl that was friendzoned. My crush only saw me as a friend. You rock my world since the first day that we talked. I liked being with you. You made me feel special. Wanted. And that's what i needed. I really love you. As a friend. I get you. I'm not hurt. Please can we stay friends?

L: Sure.

We hug.

L: Are you talking about Christian?
C: How would you know?
L: We are friends. I know you.
C: Yeah. But he doesn't feel the same.
L:Than he is a idiot.
C:Maybe.
L:You should ask him.
C:What? Are you crazy? He only sees me as a friend and his sister bestfriend.
L: You don't know that.
C:And you know that he likes me?
L:I don't know. But you should find out.
C: And what are you going to ?
L: Stay single for awhile.
C: Problably for the best.
L: You still can have a happy ending with him.
C: But if...
L: You want him. So go get him.

I look at his eyes. Wow i can't belive that i'm actually doing this.

C: Wish me luck.
L: Good luck.

With that i start running.

// LOGAN'S P.O.V.//

( BEFORE CLARY'S CALL)

I don't know. I like her. But as a girl that i want to spend my life with? No. I like her as a friend. She is the best girl i know and even if she doesn't forgive me i love her. As my friend.

I used to think that i loved Mandy. She was the sweetest girl i knew. Now she is my past. And i like it that way. But Clary... i want her in my present and future, but not as my girlfriend or ,in the future, wife. I want to be friends with her until i die.

My phone starts ringing. I wonder, who it is? It's Clary.

L:Hi.
C: We need to talk.
L: Ok.Park in 10 minutes?
C: Sure. Sounds good.

I walk to the park thinking that i can't let her leave without telling her the truth.

// END OF LOGAN'S P.O.V.//

I run until i can't anymore. I run and run and run. I can't lose courage.

I knock on their door. Christian opens it.

CH: Two times in one day? Is today my birthday? - he says sarcastically.
C: We need to talk.

CH