The better one wins her

Time away

// Clary hugging her father//

Warning
This chapter addresses a topic that may upset some readers. I don't give much details.

Cap.22

It's been six days. Six days since i last spoke with my family. Christian and Anna have been keep me busy. Today is Friday, after school today i am going the park to think. I need to figure the things. When i came back home i need to know what to do.

My last class is over and i want to grab something to eat on my way to the park.

A: See you at home?
C: Yeah. I don't know when but i will.
A: If you need anything call me.
C: Ok. Bye.
A: Bye.

I go walking to McDonald that has near the park. Anna has been driving me to school, i mean it would be stupid if i was coming in my car since we have been living in the same house. When i reach the Mc I eat a big mac. After eating while seeing a YouTube video I  go to the park and seat at the same spot that i sat with Logan.

I remember when my dad left home. I was 9 or 10 years when it happened. One day i came home from school and he wasn't there. I didn't cried and my mom asked me why and i lied. She doesn't know the real reason why i don't want to talk with him.
I remember the first time he abused me. I was 5 or 6. No one was home. He hit me because no one was home. He was really drunk. After that day every single time he was alone with me that happened. When he left i was almost happy. But then i started to blame myself. Them i was really depressed. I needed help but i didn't asked. I dealt with that on my own. After almost two years i realized that wasn't my fault. I was a victim. I started to have friends and a life and i started to forget that. But when i thought everything was starting to be alright the nightmares started. Almost every night for months i have those. I slept most of that time with Liam. He really helped me. Once in a while i still have nightmares. They aren't as regular as before. But i need to face my fears. I need to be brave. I need to gave him a chance at least to explain why. It will bring me peace. I have to do that. I need some answers and he needs to hear me out. 

I call Liam and he immediately answers:

L: Clary. Have you decide yet?
C: I need you to met me in the park.
L: I am at home. I will be there in five.
C

: Ok i will be at the entry.
L: Bye.

I go to the entry. I need to talk with Liam first. My brother and i always had a good relationship and i want to keep it that way. I wait a few minutes until that i see his car.

L: Get in.

I get into the car.

C: I want to see him. I want to talk with him. I need answers.
L: He is living near. I will tell mom to call him.
C: Can we eat ice cream before?
L: Why?
C: I can't go home if he isn't there. I will lose the courage.
L: Ok. Let's go.

We eat our vanilla ice cream and go home. I see a unfamiliar car parked infront of our home.

L: It's his car.
C: Ok.
L: Are you sure? You don't need to do this. I can go in there and tell them you aren't ready.
C: I need this. I have to do this.
L: I'm here. Come on.

We enter our house. I see something that i haven't see in years. My mom and him in a couch. I feel like i have seven years again.

R: Honey.
C: Hi mom.
L: You want us here?
C: Whatever you want.

They sit in the couch next to each other and i sit infront of each other.

Ro: I know you want answers.
C: I do.
Ro: Go on.
C: Why are you here? I mean you left.
Ro: I wasn't being the best father i could be. I went to a rehab clinic. Two years ago when my treatment ended i got a job near here. I bought a house. I am starting a life. I wanted to prove to be someone better. That deserve these family. I love my kids and my wife. They are everything to me. And i am sorry.
C: You are sorry?! You destroyed my life. I didn't tell anyone about what you did. Did you tell them when you came here?
R: What did he do honey?
Ro: I have no excuse.
L: What he did?
C: Every. Single.Time. Every. Single. One. Every time that you where gone my dad, the person who was supposedly  to protect his little princess hit me. Hit me like i was a punching bag. A little detail i was seven years. When you left i was happy. But i blamed myself. Maybe it was my fault. But then i started to have nightmares and...

L: The nightmares were because of him?
C: Yeah. And they never stopped. I hated you for so long. I saw what my mother suffering  and the consequences from what you did. I hated you. But i forgive you. I want a new start. I give you a chance.
Ro: Thank you Clary.
C: Mom say something.
R: Why didn't you tell me?
C: You weren't here. And when you were you were tired.
L: But i was here. You are my sister. You are my responsibility.
C: And you are my hero. I grow up watching you being like this. I don't want you to think less than me.
L: Did you tell anyone?
C: Not all of it. Just the hitting part.
R: Who? Logan?
C: No. Christian.
L: You told that guy?
C: I didn't cared what he thought of me. It's easier that way.
L: And now you care for him?
C: You know the answer.

The room was silent for almost a minute until my mom talked

 R: Let's order some pizza for dinner.
L: Peperoni.
C: You know that i like it.
Ro: I should get going. Thank you for everything.
L: Bye.
R: Bye.

He was already out of the door. I see him walking. I need to give the first step.

C: I will be right back.

I ran to him.

C: Roger.Roger.Wait.

He turns around.

C: I want to give the first step. Would you like to stay for dinner?
Ro: You want me to?
C: Yeah. I mean it's just pizza and a film. But can you promise me that you really changed?
Ro: Yes. I changed and i am ashamed from what i did to my own daughter.
C: I won't forget that. And it will take time until i forgive you but for now let's eat pizza. I'm starving.
Ro: Let's go.

We go inside and have dinner. We watch a film and then Liam takes me to Anna's. I stay there for the night because my clothes and my car are there. My life has changed this night.

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