Bittersweet Tragedy | | Draco Malfoy

To Be Loved or Be Feared?

He dragged me away from his friends to a place no one could hear us. He looked around before saying "I don't want to hurt you".

I scoffed "Well, you already failed at that didn't you?" He looked at my neck, I saw his body tense up, almost as if he felt bad

"That's different L/N." His words were firm but his tone was laced with uncertainty.

"It really isn't." I say going to walk away "you're welcome by the way" Just like him, my words were tough but it was laced with slight hurt.

"What do you mean?" His eyebrows knitted in confusion.

"I could've turned you in, I have evidence that you got physical with me, but I didn't" I sighed "You may not give a shit about me or my health but"

He cut me off "Why didn't you?" he said

"Why didn't I what? Turn you in?" He nodded "I didn't turn you in Malfoy because it wouldn't be fun to win like that, and I have some human decency

He looked me up and down "Or, the real reason is that you know you deserved it"

"Are you fucking serious? Go fuck yourself Malfoy, if you want to play like that then I don't want to be a part of this." He backed up a little and I moved past him

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I paced around my dorm, fidgeting with my fingers as I tried to calm myself down.

"Y/N what's going on, you've been pacing," Luna asked looking up from her drawing

"I ended it with malfoy. God why am I like this" I groaned and flopped on my bed

"like what?" she questioned,

"A mess, I don't know how to deal with my emotions and for some reason, I feel like there's a hole in my chest and I don't fucking know why" I yelled, my hands were shaking and I couldn't breathe

"Okay, let's calm down okay? Inhale, 1 2 3 4" i inhaled "exhale 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 " i exhaled. She always knew how to calm me down

"Thank you, Luna, you have no idea how much I appreciate and love you" I smiled

"I love you too," she said

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I moved my fork around my food, I had no appetite. I looked up at Malfoy and saw him glance at me, and for some reason, my stomach felt like it was flipped over. I looked back down quickly

"Y/N, you need to eat" a voice snapped me back into reality. "I know you don't feel well but the food is fuel"

I looked at Cho who pushed my food towards me. I put some of my food on my fork and looked around, locking eyes with Malfoy on accident. He looked at me for a couple of seconds and that look in his eye came back.

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I washed my hand and ran to potions class just in time to go to my cauldron. Snape looked up at me but didn't say anything, I ignored it and opened my book. As he started talking about Wit-Sharpening Potion. I groaned as I hated potions, mostly because of him, but I was really good at it, besides the last potion. I was 3rd in class, below Hermonie and Malfoy.

I grabbed the Armadillo Bile and gagged at its awful smell. I put it in quickly, trying to ignore the smell.

As I waited for it to turn blue. I looked to my side at Malfoy's but while I was looking at his potion he was looking at me. I sighed gratefully as his potion was also blue, signaling that I was doing the right thing. I mixed Ground Scarab Beetles and I smiled proudly as it turned red, the color it was supposed to be.

I confidently turned in my potions at the end of class and before I got fully out the door someone grabbed my hand.

"Luna, you know I love you but I have to-oh" I turned around to see Malfoy, I quickly moved my hand away

"Don't look far into it, I thought you were Pansy" he quickly walked away

I watched him walk away, extremely confused as to what just happened. I shrugged and went to charms cast and greeted Professor Flitwick

"Hello, sir!" I smiled brightly.

"Well, hello Y/N" He smiled "I hope you enjoy today's class, Colour Change Charm.!"

"Ooh, did you choose it for your favorite student?" I asked, smiling slightly, Flitwick didn't respond 'That's not a no! I knew it, I'm Flitwick's favorite student, go Y/N go Y/N"

"Okay okay, sit down now" I groaned and sat down on my chair pulling out my charms book and looking at the color-changing charm excitedly

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Right before I went to bed an owl flew through my room, dropping a letter, knowing who the letter was from I got excited

Dear Y/N
Hello sweetie. How are you? I haven't heard from you in a while. I hope that Malfoy boy isn't giving you trouble anymore, though I doubt he has stopped. Your dad and I are going to America for Christmas and unfortunately can't take you. Business, you know. You'll be staying at Hogwarts for Christmas, I hope you won't cause trouble. Owl me as soon as you can. I love you to infinity and over again.

~Mama

I folded the letter and put it in my trunk. I immediately started writing a letter back, saying I wanted to hear everything about the Americans. I sent my owl, Callie, to my mom. I went to go under the covers when a coin hit me in the head.

"I did not mean to hit you in the head! I'm so sorry" She said quickly "But that's from hermonie, the first meeting is next week, says so on the coin" she smiled and placed her own coin on her nightstand

I looked at the coin. Hermonie is bloody brilliant, I thought to myself. I went under my covers and tried to go to sleep

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