Guardian angel ( A.I )

BUSTED

" yea that's what I thought. Found me yet?"
I turn around to see a tall blonde haired boy in the distance. This should be fun. NOT...

" Heyyyyyy Luke long time no see." i nervously say through the phone. he points at me and then at the ground next to him signally me to get my ass over there. * sigh *
" Alright alright I'm coming." I hang up the phone and start walking. when I get over there he's giving me a straight face. " Luke I can expla-..." he cuts me off, " In the car now." He says raising his voice. Im looking is his eyes and he can see the flash of hurt in mine. His face softens a little bit but tenses back up almost instantly. I walk around his car to the passenger side and get in. It's been a long time since he raised his voice at me in anger. The last time he did he promised me he would never do it again so I know he's serious. He gets in the drivers seat but doesn't start the car. Instead he's staring at he with fire in his eyes. uh oh I know I'm in trouble. " why are you here this late at night?" He finally breaths out breaking the silence. I sit in silence staring into my lap. " God damit Alyssa answer me!" He raises his voice and slams the steering wheel. I flinch at his tone but he stays stern. once again I've made some one I care about angry. My wrist itches but I can't do anything about that now. " I'm ... sorry..." I finally choke out. " No Alyssa. we are not playing this game today." he turns my head so that I'm facing him. " what game?" I question him. " The game you always play. you say sorry, I forgive you and we act like it never happened. Now tell me why you were out here so late and what happened to your face." his once warm eyes turned cold with anger. I sighed in defeat. I take a deep breath and tell him why I'm here. " I was here because here is the only place I can think. My mother won't be coming home until late tomorrow night because she's staying with a friend. I know that she doesn't want to see me because just the sight of my face fills her with hate and rage." I barley choked out the last part. The throat started to burn again and a single tear drop escaped my eye. I tried to wipe it off before he could see it but I was too late. " don't cry alyssa it's okay Im sure your mother didn't stay out because she didn't want to see you." his face softens a bit but still has a bit of sternness in his face. " now tell me what Happened to your face." he raises his hand up to my cheek to skim the red mark. " Umm... nothing I'm fine." I quickly lie to him. I don't know if I should tell him about the 3 boys or about ashton. " okay now tell me the truth." he says. " ummm there was this group of boys..." I trail off. I can see his fist start to clench up and the fire in his eyes. I keep going... " they tried to rape me... Then another boy came and tried to fight them off. I pulled the biggest one off of him and then he slapped me right across my face..." his knuckles are white, his body is tense and his eyes are filled, not with fire but with tears.he looks down at his lap. " Luke?" I ask. I go to touch his shoulder but as soon as my finger tips touch his shoulder his eyes fill with fire again and he starts to scream. " I fucking told you to stay away from this park! I told you that if you were gonna go then to tell me and never go at night! Jesus Christ Alyssa why can't you just fucking listen to me?! They could have killed you!" He's screaming at the top of his lungs. I can feel the rage rush through my veins and without thinking I scream out, " Well maybe I'm better off dead! After all I'm just the fuck up best friend that never listens right?!" We have been best friends since we were kids and we never fought like this but I wasn't backing down.
" Don't you fucking dare try to turn this around on me Alyssa. I'm just trying to look out for you! Don't you dare say that you're better off dead! Do you know what it would do to me if you killed your self? I would hate myself for ever because I couldn't help you while you were drowning. All I want is to help you and all you do is push me away!"
" Well maybe I don't need your help! ever thought of that? Maybe I'm not this helpless little girl that everyone tries to fix! I don't need your help! Come to think of it I don't need you at all...!" I sit there shocked at my own words. the second they leave my mouth I want to take them back but I stay silent. I can see the anger leave from Luke's face as it fills with shock. Oh no what have I done. great job Alyssa you probably just lost your best friend. He turns around so that his back is towards me. no luke please don't do this to me .
" Get out..." he breaths. I can hear in his voice that he's crying.
" Luke im..."
" I said get out! Just go. you don't need me anymore so just get out!" He screams at me.
I get out of his car in tears. he turns on his car and speeds away. the roar of his engine fades as he drives further and further away from me. I turn and walk home leaving a trail of tears behind.
* HOME*
I sneak in through my bedroom window. Keep in mind I have a 2 story house and I can barley climb trees to save my life. my dad is still asleep so I put head phones in my ears and blast pandora in my ear. The first song that comes on is sorry by sleeping with sirens and I automatically start to ball my eyes out. I reach under my bed and pull out a little black box I open it and take out my secret blade. I haven't told my dad about this one and I only use this one when I can't control my depression.
1 cut , "this is because your stupid."
2 cuts , "this is because you don't know how to listen"
3 cuts, "this is for being the biggest fuck up."
4... "And this is for losing your best friend..."

"I'm sorry for the things I've done, things I've done..."

I want to pick up the phone and call Luke and tell him that I'm sorry but I can't. I heard it in his voice he doesn't want to talk to me, he's angry with me, and it's all my fault. I look at the time it's almost 2:00am but I'm too depressed to be tired. I lie down in my bed grab my biggest teddy bear and squeeze it tight. With my arm still bleeding to a slow stop, I close my eyes and imagine the whole world fade away around me. the next song is end up here and I start to cry again. " What the fuck did I pick the make alyssa cry station?" I sarcastically ask my self. Suddenly the music stopped In my ears and it started to ring loudly. I look down and see that Luke is calling me. I take a deep breath press the answer button and barley choke out a hello.
"Hey..."
"Hey alyssa can we talk? like now I'll come to your house I just need to talk to you."
" I uhh... can't. I have to go to sleep for work tomorrow. maybe after my shift we can talk"
" Sounds like a plan. See you later... Best friend."he breaths out. I give a little smile and think to my self," maybe he's not mad anymore."
"See you later my little penguin."
He gives a quite giggle but I heard it. I hang up the phone and plop myself back onto the bed.
"Wow today was a rough day. tomorrow should be a little better though." I sigh looking at the time. " I have to go to bed. I have to clear my mind." I change into my pajamas put my phone in the table next to me, and slide into bed. My phone vibrates once so I know it's a text.

Luke😔: "hey you didn't cut your self right?"

Great what am I going to say to him. If I lie to him he will get angry again but if I tell him then he will still get upset. I have to make a decision do I lie to my borderline best
friend or tell him the truth...?

Me: " no I didn't."
Luke😔: "are you sure?"
Me: yes I'm sure. hey do you remember what time you dropped me off at the park in the morning?"
Luke😔: okay and around like 11:00a.m. Why?
Me: just asking. Well good night
He says good night but I feel horrible. Well I guess I'm wearing long sleeves tomorrow. I close my eyes and feel the world fade away.
"It's going to be okay." I lie to my self. no nothing is ever okay when you are me..
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Hey guys bet you didn't expect that from Luke Hemings right? XD yeah the once known harmless penguins has turned dark for once. I know it's a little short but bare with me I'm not a really good writer.
( BTW there might be mention on one direction songs but not many so don't hate please.)
Picture is beginning is kind of like the look Luke gave me when I turned around. Next update soon.
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Much love ~ Alyssa Irwin XD