Stray Kids x Stay [Book 1]

Hard to express - Lee Know

"Lee Minho! I love you, please be my boyfriend" you confessed to him.
"Okey" he give you a short replied but it manage to smile gleefully.

It's already been a year, you and him become a couple. It was a dream come true that your crush is now your boyfriend but the thing is that he rarely show affection even tho you know he does care for you.

"Hey y/n...how's your relationship with Minho?" Your bestfriend, Yuji ask and pointing at Minho.
"It's still great" you smiled weirdly.
"I know that kind of  smile, tell me" she put her hand on your shoulder and you let out a sigh.
"I know it wrong to feel this way but why do I feel like our feelings aren't mutual" you sadly told her.
"What made you think so?" She ask.
"Because he rarely show his affection to me and when I show my affection he will act weirdly and I notice that he will try to joke around and we haven't even kiss yet. We have hold hand before but it rarely happen" you pout.
"You do remember  he's the type that hard to express his feeling right?" Yuji state.
"I know but it's been a year we been dating and I'm having doubt about it" you guilty said.
"Hey...how about you go on a date with him and see how it goes if he still such a way, try asking him. Communication is number one when it come to relationship y/n" Yuji give you advice and you hugged her as a sign of thanks.

You followed what Yuji told you the other day and asked Minho for a date. Today was the day, you will have date with him. You wait for him infront of the train station. You look back at your wrist watch to notice that he's running abit late and you got worried if something happened to him. Suddenly you saw him running toward you. As soon as he reach infront of you, he was patting heavily like he had run from his house to the train station.

"Minho, are you ok?" You pat his back worriedly.
"Mian...y/n, I accidentally sleep in and hurriedly ran here" he manage to explain in between his heavy patting.
"Here, let take a rest" you pulled him to an empty bench and fan his sweaty face with your hand.
"Thanks but I think I'm fine now" he smiled at you.
"No you're absolutely not fine! You're still out of breath, now rest for abit and I will go buy your a water bottle" you said before going to a vending machine.

He watch you ran towards the vending machine and a smile appeared on his face. You come back with a water bottle and gave him. He thanked you before drinking it empty.
"You feeling fine now?" You ask.
"Yeah, thanks y/n" he patted your head before standing up.

You followed his step and link your arm with him but he took his arm from your grip.
"Y/n I'm still sweaty, it's better if your don't get to close to me" he said and you just nodded to it even tho you were kinda hurt by his action.

The date was going smoothly but every time you try to do some skinship with him, he will always try to avoid your touches. Your doubt is coming back and it's getting worse, you were feeling like Minho doesn't like you as much as you to him. The day was getting dark and he offered to send you home but you have one more place to go with him.

"Where is that place?" He raise his eyebrow curiously.
"Somewhere, you will see it" you said and quickly took his hand on yours.

You took him to somewhere with less people and more quiet so that you can talk to him without anyone disturb it. The night scenery was beautiful since it was filled with colorful lights and that captivate both you and Minho's attention.
You turn your head toward Minho and saw how captivate his eyes were at the view but soon he was taken back when  you suddenly ask him.

"Minho, do you love me?" You ask, looking into his eyes.
"Of course I do y/n" he replied and you took a step closer but he took a step backward making you stared at him furrowing your eyebrow.
"Then why are you distancing yourself from me?" You ask and he gulp his saliva.
"It's because...I" he scratch the back of his neck, not knowing what to say to you.
"Minho, I love you...I seriously love you and I want this relationship to last long but it clearly that you don't want it to be" you look down on your feet, making Minho panic.
"Y/n...I also want we to last long" he said, then you stare back at him with tears eyes.
"Then show me that you also want us to last long" you said and he look away.
"I can't...it's complicated" he said and that made you heart break.
"What is so complicated Lee Minho?? Just tell me! I'm your girlfriend" you unconsciously raise your voice at him.
"I don't know how..." He replied and that made you more confuse.
"What?" You ask.
"I don't know how to... Show affection, I can only express it by joking around...my parents never show me how to do and you're my first love y/n, so every time I try to show affection it always made me feel shy and can't think properly" he explain to you and covered of of his face with his palm.
"First love?" You ask, surprise that Minho never once date someone other than you.
"Yes, I don't know what you see in me but I do know that I don't want to lose you since only you who can cope with my behavior" he said, still hiding his flushed face.

You didn't know what to replied but instead you hug him and that made him surprised by your sudden action.
"Y/n?" He called out your name.
"Let me help you to open up" you look up to see his face looking down at you.
"I'm scared that..if I open up to you completely, you will get tired of me" he said and you shook your head.
"Do you know the reason why I feel for you?" You ask and he shook his head.
"It's because the day, you helped when I was having a mental breakdown with my grade and I know that you try your best to learn everything so that you can easily teach me the things I don't understand even tho your were also struggling with your grade and you always try to make me laugh with your silly jokes...that was the reason why I fall for you Lee Minho" you confess to him and he was surprised by it.
"Y/n, I know I haven't been the best boyfriend but I will try to be perfect boyfriend that you deserve" he said.
"You don't have to be perfect Minho...I love you for you and I'm sorry jumping into conclusion" you cupped his cheek to lock eyes with him.
"I'm sorry too that you have those thought because I don't act as a boyfriend should act" he hold your hand which was still on his cheeks.
"Let's learn from this and improve our relationship hm?" You told your head and show a small smile.
"I love you y/n, I really really do" he confess and it was the first time you heard him say that to you.

You didn't hesitant to pull him into a kiss, it took him by surprised but he manage to kiss you back as you wrap your arms around his neck while he wrap his arms around your waist. You both pull away from the kiss and stare eachother with full of loves.