Eleutheromania -- Levi Ackerman x Reader --

Chapter 27 - Changed -

"Levi, Hello! Any ideas what I can give you for your holy birthday?"

I barged in to Levi's office with such a position. My left arm was on my waist  and my right arm was swinging front and back. I look like that I was about to save a kid from a fire with my face.

He stared at me blankly with his brows twitching. He's jaw clenched and gave me a glare. He place his pen down and gave me another glare.

"Get out." He said.

"Levi, I'm asking you what gift would you like?" I frowned. Turning back to close the door and marching back to him and sat down on the chair in front of him. Placing my elbow on his table. I rested my chin on my palm and stared at the book shelves on the side of the room.

"I don't need any." He then pick his pen back to his rough palm and continued signing or writing something on the paper. "Oh really? Then I won't be costing any of my money.."

He didn't respond back so my eyes travels around the book shelves. My eyes spotted a familiar book. I now realize the cover was the same thing that I used to read back with Ms. Madoka.

Ms. Madoka is the lad, I shared home with. After my Mom's death, I stayed outside of my house thinking that Mom will come home from work. Ms. Madoka visit me for the first time saying that she was the Manager of my Mom and would like to replace her with me. She also proposed that we could live on the same roof. I was so lonely back then that I needed somebody so I agreed.

She so kind and she even payed me every month. I declined the money so many time but she keeps secretly putting money on my box where I kept money that I earned from my jobs. She also collects her favorite books and would lend it me. I read amazing books so far and my favorite was "The Diary of Anne Frank."

It was about a girl that was trapped on a tower and her family wouldn't let her out for some reasons. When the family would go outside, she would write about her day, about how she would escape out of the tower. And the only connection to the outside world was the window.

She once saw a bird flying out of her window, and she wrote  "Sometimes I feel like a bird in a cage and I wish I could fly away."

And I was able to relate that feeling. I know that I can just walk and run away but I feel that I was trapped. I couldn't do anything freely by myself.

And from then on, I knew she was gonna make. She had to make it. I was so desperate to see how she would escape. 'She's gonna make it because she's a good person, she hasn't done anything wrong.' That was my thought back then.

About 2-3 days, I finished the book.

I found myself marching angrily at Ms. Madoka and almost threw the book all way back to the room. "Why didn't you tell me?" I ask her.

"Tell you what..?" Ms. Madoka replied. I bet back then that my face was so red from anger and my fist clenching so hard.

"Why didn't you tell me that Anne dies?"

That the very time when she doesn't make it, I felt disappointed. That disappointed I felt every other time in my life whenever I failed at something. It was the same feeling when going outside and waiting, hoping that my mother to come home, and he didn't. 

Every feeling of disappointment all of a sudden came crashing together at that moment because I so desperately wanted her to make it. Because if she didn't make it.. then what are the chances like me who's a depressed shit actually making it out?

"She did make it, Y/N. She did make it because she wrote about it. Because Anne Frank wrote about it, she's gonna go on living after her death."