I Would Find You In Any Lifetime.

Dancing With My Demons.

"I loved her not for the way she danced with my angels, but for the way the sound of her name could silence my demons"
― Christopher Poindexter.

The girls didnt waste anytime in rushing over to the park after Camila called them and told them why they needed them, within thirty minutes the five were sat in a circle with ears perked up and ready to listen. "Where do i even start ?" Lauren lightly laughed scratching at the back of her neck nervously. 

"The Mateo situation would be a good place to start" Normani laughed in an attempt to ease her nervous friend. Lauren nodded, looking to Camila for once last check, Camila nodded pushing Lauren to go on. 

So Lauren explained it to the girls. She explained that they were both in fact gay and that they had to make an agreement to ensure that stayed a secret, she explained there agreement in detail and how they could have hook-up but couldn't get into relationship and she also explained that she thought Mateo's outburst was because he probably thought Camila and Laurens closeness was going to give away there agreement which would essentially out them both. 

Once Lauren had began to explain everything to the girls, she couldn't stop. She covered every basis, she told them every secret. She told them how she completely stabbed Madison in the back to gain power at school, she told them about how she would use peoples secrets against them to ruin there status which would add to her own and she told them about the lifestyle she forced herself to live to 'fit in'. 

She covered hooking up with men, she covered hooking up with women, her drug abuse, her alcohol abuse and 'self sabotage' as Camila liked to call it. Nothing was missed as Lauren talked on and on for nearly two hours, the girls listened intently only ever interjecting if they had a question. Before they knew it they had eaten and drank there way through Laurens bag of goods and the park was starting to empty out. 

"So, do you think he'll try and stab you in the back ?" Ally quizzed, still trying to process all the information Lauren had just off loaded. 

"Who knows" Lauren shrugged off being completely honest, she had no idea how the boy would choose to deal with this in the long run which worried her the most, She could often predict how someone would react to one of her outbursts but never Mateo because she had never exploded on him like she did the other day. 

The circle then fell silent. Dinah was still stuck on the fact Lauren and Mateo were both gay and that they had a whole cunning plan in motion to hide it, Ally was just trying to process the two hours worth of information without her brain exploding, Normani wasnt to lost, she already knew a lot of the information other than the part about Mateo so she was handling it better than everyone else. 

Camila was passing through a series of emotions right now. She was proud that Lauren finally felt comfortable enough around the girls and within herself to speak openly about her emotions and past but Camila also couldn't shake off the new found... hate, for Lauren. Lauren had become everything Camila hated in a person. She was a bully, she was manipulative and she was a liar. Lauren had become one of the girls her and Camila used to hate and fear, Lauren had become one of the girls she swore to Camila she would never become. 

This wasnt Lauren anymore, this wasnt the Lauren she thought she loved. This was a whole new person and she hated it. Camila couldn't even look beside her and see Lauren anymore, the girl beside her had become a stranger. 

Camila stood up straightening herself out, she collected her things and began to walk away. She ignored the calls from all of the girls and carried on towards the exit of the park they entered through. She didnt know where she was or where she was going but she couldn't stay there any longer, she couldn't sit beside the raven-haired girl any longer.