Persona 5 X Reader

70: Wedding(Ren And Reader)

Wedding (Ren And Reader)

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Ren Amamiya is at the churchyard, sitting on a bench, looking as if he is deep in thought. But he is. He had never realized how stupid he could be until now. He had never given much thought to these things before. He was always about prioritizing – work first before anything else – and that notion itself got him losing the most important person in his life.

How could he let her slip away from him like that?

He buries his face in his hands, his heart is plunging, beating in slow, hard pumps and he feels as if he’s about to cry. But the tears never come. They are stuck inside, wanting to get out but something’s holding it back.

The leaves rustle and small steps are heard coming towards him. He looks up and the tears reach his eyes – but they don’t fall, not yet.

“What are you doing here?” She says. Her voice trembles and Ren avoids her gaze.

Don’t look at me – don’t talk to me.

But this is unavoidable. He pushes his thoughts – his emotions – away and smiles at her. But his smile is broken. Although she wanted to comfort him, she had no right to do so – not anymore.

“It’s about to start.” She announces but she says it because the tinge of hope in her voice is saying – I want you to stop it;

Come to me again.

But it was just too late.

The thought lingers in their minds. She sits beside him, fixing her wedding dress while doing so. Ren takes the chance to look at her closely. He wanted to look at her and know that after today, she’ll never be his again. He wanted to get hurt because he knew this was his entire fault.

He let the chance slip away.

But what could he do? He was Ren Amamiya. He couldn’t give her everything. But she knew that from the very first time they met. Even so, she accepted him – but he was so stubborn, he pushed her away. He had hurt her.

That’s why he’s letting all the hurt come to him, at least by then; he’d be able to feel the same way. But oddly enough, he feels nothing. The hurt has been too much and had made him numb. Like there is a hollow space in the middle of his heart, yes there is pain, but other than that, he is empty.

And he feels nothing.

He doesn’t want to talk. He wants to feel as if she’s not really there. Like her sitting beside him is a figment of his imagination but everything falls apart as soon as she breaks down and cry.

“I can’t believe you.” She whispers, the tears choking the next words. He reaches out his hand to her but he stops half-way. “How… h-how could you hurt and leave me like that?”

“I…” But his heart catches on his throat and blocks all the words. “Im sorry.”

How stupid.

She looks at him and stands up, giving him a slap. He takes it. He was even glad she did it because he deserved it. He looked at the ground, waiting for her to leave but she just stands there, tears falling and breathing heavily.

He expected her to slap him again, shout at him or even punch him but there wasn’t any violence that came after that. She calms down, wiping the tears on her cheeks and she walks slowly to him. He is falling apart. He is falling apart. And lightly, her fingers touch his face, turning it to face her. And she leans down and kisses him.

He could feel her tears on his face. He wants to kiss back, he wants to respond but he is frozen. And she pulls away. Something has changed. Her kiss tasted like regret on the lips.

“I still love you.”

But it’s too late.

The pain is suffocating them. They both look away. He feels foolish for not doing anything. But what else could he do? Everything is too late.

He looks at her, eyes seeming like they hold something but like the hollow space in his heart – there is nothing.

“For the last time…” The words are too faint for him to hear but they sound so angelic. Like songs being whispered as a lullaby. “…play for me, okay?”

And that’s when she turns away, the church bells chiming to her absence. The wedding is about to start. Will he still go? He looks at the bench, at the spot where she sat and there laid a piano sheet. He chuckles, a deep, heart-breaking chuckle as he took the paper and grazed his other hand on it lightly.

So this is it.

The thought of it breaks him and finally, the tears fall.

'I hope Akechi take care of you and always make you happy.'

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When I make this, there's a part based on this song, it's called Wedding Dress by Big Bang (Taeyang)~ 💖

Published: 18 December 2020