DEAR MISS AUTHOR (Against The Universe Series#2)

chapter 13

Sitting in the sand near the beach, watching the sun to fade away, while wearing my white spaghetti straps dress, letting the water to come by in my feet, I can't help but to get mesmerized by beauty of the sea.
If I die, I want my love to bury me here, with a lots of petals under the urn, yes. I want them to cremate me, if I die. If they will gonna bury me here, I'll be happy because it's so peaceful and relaxing.

Tila ba nasa isang paraiso talaga ako, Habang patuloy akong namamangha sa ganda na, aking natatanaw sa paligid, ay hindi ko namalayan ang pag lapit sakin ng taong dati kong minahal ng lubos.

Just like what I said, ilalayo ko si sky, sakanila, hindi ko hahayaan na kunin sya sakin, not with rona, and not with her twin!

Napag pasyahan ko na sumama kay matthew sa palawan, sana sa ganitong paraan, maging payapa na kami.

"Masyado nang malalim ang iniisip mo, baka hindi kana maka ahon dyan"

Pabirong saad nito, bago umupo sa tabi ko.

"Sana nga hindi nalang ako maka ahon, sana totoo nalang ang imahinasyon"

"Bakit naman?"

"Nang sa gayon ay...
Nag katuluyan tayo"

Mahinang usal ko, saka yumuko at nilaro laro ang puting buhangin sa aking kamay.

"Kia"

"Alam ko naman na, hindi na tayo magiging totoo, may kanya kanya na tayong buhay, may asawa kana, at masaya naman ako bilang isang manunulat"

"But sky is our son"

"Si sky? Yes, we had a son, but he died years ago. Kung ang tinutukoy mo naman ay ang sky na kasama natin ngayon"

Nag buntong hininga ako, bago ipinag patulog ang sasabihin.

"Ang hirap tanggapin pero... Hindi ko naman anak si sky, he's not your son too. Wala ni isa sating dalawa ang nag ma may'ari sakanya. Sky is a robot, made by shann. Ang sakit isipin na binili ko lang si sky! Na pinagawa ko lang sya, para matakpan ang pangungulila ko sa anak ko! Sa anak natin! If- if you didn't choose her, buhay pa sana ang anak ko"

"Kia-"

"If you didn't marry her, tayo sana ang mag kasama ngayon

"Kia -"

"Matthew, if you just love me enough that time,  baka sana, ako na ang isa sa pinaka masayang babae ngayon, I'm always imagining things like, you, me and our son on a vacation trip, building a own house, cuddling each other, making fun of other, attending family day in his school, me making you a breakfast early in the morning, before you go to work. Kissing you and my son good morning and good night kiss... Pero lahat ng yun ay nawala, nasira yung imagination ko  nung, pinakasalan mo sya, nawala lahat ng yun matty, lahat ng imahe na nabuo sa isip ko, nangyari sayo, pero sa piling na ng iba."

Saad ko, saka bahagyang tumawa, isn't it funny? Na nandito kami ngayon sa lugar kung saan kami nag hiwalay. Same place, same time. But, different feelings.

"Flow, is a good wife...
She did nothing wrong, but to love me unconditionally. She's everything that a man's need. A perfect wife to be exact.  Pero sa kabila nun, kahit na ibuhos nya lahat sakin, ang pag mamahal na meron sya, hindi ko parin sya magawang tignan, sa paraan kung pano kita pag masdan. When I was waiting for her in the aisle,  I was hoping that, you are the girl that I'm going to marry. While, she's walking down the aisle, I was imagining that it was you, who is walking towards me, While saying those sweet vows to her, I Imagine your face on her. But then, nagising nalang ako bigla sa magandang imahinasyon ko na iyon, naalala ko, hindi nga pala ikaw ang pinakasalan ko, naalala ko na... Pinakawalan nga pala kita"

Is he regretting? That he marry flow?

"The day of your wedding, I was there, watching you smile genuinely at her. Watching you say how much you love her. Ang hirap palang kalabanin ng first love, that's why I really believe in the saying na, first love never dies"

Bahagya naman itong tumawa, saka nag buntong hininga ng pabagsak.

"Yes I marry her, pero hindi parin nya napunan yung kaligayahan ko, because you are my joy, kia. Ikaw lang, walang araw na hindi ako nag sisi dahil sa napaka maling desisyon na nagawa ko. Iniimagine ko palang na, ikaw ay mag kaka pamilya sa iba, ay sobra sobrang galit na ang nararamdaman ko, kaya nung Nalaman ko kay cholo na, may dinidate ka, which is that freaking scientist! Shann. Sobra akong nag alala, pano kung- pano kung mag papakasal kayo?! Pano nalang ako?"

"Anong pano ka?! You have a wife!"

"Yes I do have! But I don't love her kia, ikaw lang, kahit noon pa, ikaw parin. Ikaw at ikaw parin ang nandito!"

Saad nito sabay turo sa kanyang dibdib kung nasaan ang kanyang puso.

"But you have a own family now, sakanila ka mag focus! How about your kids?! Matt-"

"Kia! Do you really think that I already have a kids?! Damn no! Sa tingin mo ba ay gaganahan akong gawin ang bagay na yun sakanya?! Kahit na mag hubad pa sya sa harapan ko, which is she already did years ago, ay hinding hindi ko parin sya papatulan!"

"But, your mom, probably wants a grandchild"

"I don't care! I don't care about her anymore! She wants a grandchild?! Then why the hell she killed our son?! Tama na, na sinunod ko sya noon, at yun na ang huling pag kakamali na gagawin ko, because right now, I'm willing to sacrifice everything, just to have you and sky in my life"

"Matty, stop what you're thinking! Let's just be friends!"

"Sa tingin moba kaya kitang ituring na kaibigan?! Kia?! Do you really think that way?! Kahit kailan hindi kaibigan ang magiging tingin ko sayo! Dahil higit pa sa kaibigan ang pag mamahal na kaya kong ibigay sayo, I will file an annulment in our wedding! I will divorce her kia,just to have you"

"you can't do that!"

"Of course I can! I can do everything, just to win you back! I'm willing to lose everything, just to have you, ganon kita kamahal, na kahit na ikasisira pa ng buong pagkatao ko ay, gagawin ko, basta ba bumalik ka lang sakin"

"I'm going to court you, and that's final! No more buts kia"

"I don't want to become a mistress matty, at ayoko din na maging bastardo si sky"

"That's why I'll divorce flow, just for you and sky, let's build a happy family together"

"Divorce her, first... And let's see , if my mind will change after you divorce her"

Ngumiti naman ito sakin, at bahagyang tumango.

I knew it! I love this crazy pilot! At kahit na ilang beses nya akong saktan, ay sya parin ang mamahalin ko.

Yes! Ganun ako karupok!
At patuloy parin akong magiging marupok, para sa kanya.