"I don't know anymore."
Rei looked at me then scoffed.
"What?" "You're fucking dumb." He stood up and walked to the kitchen to put his empty mug in a sink.
"What does that even mean?" I stood up. "Nothing. You're just dumb." He smiled. I sat back down and turned on the TV. "Go to sleep. I'll get you a blanket." He walked over to his room.
"You know when I sleep." I rolled my eyes. "You know when I sleep, too. So turn it down." He exclaimed from his room. I laid down on the couch with my shoes off and watched something that would be entertaining.
"Here." Rei came back with a blanket and tossed it over to me.
"Thanks bud." I put the blanket over my body as he walked to the bathroom.
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It was getting really late. It was around 3 AM and nothing was entertaining on the TV. I left my phone on vibrate and I noticed that y/n called me multiple times. Remembering what happened made my eyes water. I moved to cover my face with a pillow and put on my earphones to listen to some music instead.
I can't stop thinking about it.
I know how Chloe treated me, but it never felt okay when it comes to losing someone. Especially someone who was there when you were transitioning into the 'next level'. Chloe was with me since college.
I was confused about why y/n acts like she didn't know as well.
It was obvious they were doing it.
Thinking about it over and over again makes me dizzy.
I wiped my eyes and turned off the TV. I closed my eyes to get rid of the dizziness.
And before I knew it, I fell asleep.
~
y/n
We arrived back home and I walked to my room directly.
I can't stand how bad I felt that moment. I laid on my bed and decided to call Joji. I needed to apologize for acting like a total dick earlier. I pressed call and waited. It said ringing, but he didn't answer.
I called him multiple times but he never answered. It was obvious he was very mad at me. I stopped calling and covered my face with my pillow. I realized I needed to calm myself a little so I got my clothes from the closet and I walked out my bedroom to go to the bathroom.
I turned on the warm water in the shower and waited for the water to get warmer. It wasn't too long. I looked into the mirror and saw myself.
"Damn, I look like shit."
I took out my makeup remover and removed all the smudged makeup on my face.
I took my clothes off and walked into the shower.
My tense shoulder felt relaxed right after the warm water drips all over my skin. I let out a relieved sigh and continued to rinse my hair.
Then, a struck of guilt hit me. I realized that Joji might hate me for the rest of my life since I did that. He felt betrayed. I was so dumb to think that what I did was fine.
I regret saying all the things I said.
I wish he never met me instead. All of this wouldn't happen.
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I went out the bathroom and walked back to my room.
Niki was already in her room, sleeping. Ian noticed how down I was and approached my room.
