12/6/2020
I'm sorry that I can't
Be perfect
I'm sorry that I'm not
What you expect me to be
I'm sorry-
Your expectations are just too high.
I'm sorry that I can't show you
What this does to my mentality
I'm sorry that I can't let you in.
I'm sorry that I've started
Building walls again.
It's the only way to push it out
And keep it from pouring in.
I'm sorry that I can't be
"Normal"
That's something I don't know
How to be
I only know how
To be me.
I'm sorry that I'm
an emotional wreck
I'm sorry that my
Mind is a mess
I'm sorry that I'm full of feelings
Feelings I cannot express
I'm sorry that I have a hard
Time with them.
I'm sorry that I'm
not what you like, not
What you had in mind.
I'm sorry that I have to be
My own person who
Lives their own life.
I'm sorry that what
You found ideal
Did not work out in the end
I'm sorry you were deceived
Maybe one day you'll see
In the end.
