cruel summer

Im drunk in the back of the car

"A bar?" I yelled. Kat really thought it would be a good idea to take me here?

"Yep! You only live once! Also it's legal here. You'll be fine."

"It's legal?"

"As long as you pretend your 18!"

"I'm only 17!"

"When will you be 18?"

"In a few weeks..."

"Close enough! Let's go!"

She pulled me through the door of the bar and before I knew it she was handing me a drink. The bar was not at all how I pictured it. I pictured it to be like the bar in How I met your mother. It wasn't! It was a dirty old place.

"You know what they say, the drinks are worth the dump!" Kat said.

"Who says that?"

"Uhhh....me?"

"Nice save."

I looked at my drink. It was a red color and it smelt like alcohol (well obviously). I gazed inside and swooshed the drink in the cup. I had to remember to check to make sure no one put something in it. There wasn't anything except the drink. I was guessing it was wine but I wasn't sure. I took a sip. It was strong!

"What is this?" I asked.

"Wine. Cheap wine but still wine."

"Okay." I said quietly as I started sipping some more.

"Now,  tell me the details on what happened."

"Well, it all started when he and Hailey broke up..."

I told her everything that happened. By then I had a bunch of drinks.

"Wow! That's deep!"

"I know!" I yelled.

"Relax it's not that loud in here!"

I stood up but I started stumbling and I fell back into my seat.

"Are you okay?" She asked me as she extended her arms to catch me.

"Yeahhh I'm better than I've EVER been!" I yelled.

"Shoot..." Kat said. She grabbed George's wrist.

"GEORGE!" She said loudly.

"What? I'm talking to this hot girl!"

"Who cares! I think Allie's drunk! She's never drunk before and it's a big problem."

"Shoot! Let me see."

He looked at me straight in the eyes.

"Nope! She's a bit drunk but very little. Get her to drink some water, we can dilute it with that!"

"But she seems drunk!"

"Trust me! I have a gift to know these things! Just get her water and we should get her home. In fact, I have a water bottle in the car. She can drink it there. I will drive. I haven't drunk anything yet and now, I'm not planning to."

"Okay! I'm on it."

Kat grabbed her stuff and told her friends she was leaving. Then she asked the bartender for a extra bottle of water before grabbing my wrist.

"I don't wanna go!" I cried.

"You have to!"

"No!"

She pulled me tighter and put me in the backseat of the car. She slammed the door and she and George jumped in the front.

"Here!" She said as she shoved a bottle of water in my face. "Drink it!"

I cried as I started to drink it. I chugged the whole bottle. As soon as I finished, she passed me another one. I chugged half of it. I started feeling better.

"Ugh I'm so tired!" I said.

"Are you okay?" Kat asked me.

"Yeah, I feel better now. I'm sober now. I just have a small headache."

"That's normal. Drink a bit more water." George said.

"Are you emotionally okay?" Kat asked.

"I'm fine." I said but it wasn't true.

I was not fine at all. I was horrible. I quietly started crying again. Why did I have to mess everything up. I want to tell him!

I pulled out my phone and opened my notes. I wrote down:

Friday, 15th of August

I'm drunk in the back of Kat's car after that horrible adventure. I cried like a literal baby as she dragged me home from the bar. She asked me if I was fine and I said 'I'm fine' but it wasn't true. I don't wanna keep secrets if it's just to keep him! I need him! He has to know how I feel even if I die trying!

I wiped my tears. There had to be something to do. This was all a masterpiece before I tore it all up! I remember it all too well! Here we are again near the vending machine where I broke his heart. I shook off that feeling. That was when I realized, sitting here sulking won't fix anything. It would only make things worse! I had to do something! And I had to do it now! There ain't no time for tears I'm just sitting here planning what I have to do! There's nothing stopping me from telling him the complete truth!

"Stop the car!" I said.

"What?" George said.

"She's sober, listen to her." Kat said.

"Fine. What is it Allie?" Said George!

"I have to go to him! I have to tell him!" I yelled.

"Okay, just let me fix your makeup!" Kat said as she jumped in the back smiling.

"Zallison is back!" George yelled happily.

Kat wiped my tears and my smudged makeup as George drove.

"Zach said his parents are out of town so that means you won't bother them when you go!" George said excitedly.

My heart started beating.

"We're here!" George said.

"Wish me luck!" I yelled behind me as I jumped in. I heard them drive away. This was it!