OPTIONS AND CHOICES (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 33

Ilang oras ng naka alis si Laike, nakakain narin kaming dalawa pero busangot na busangot parin ang mukha ni Kenzo.

Panay ang sulyap ko habang may ginagawa sa laptop na dinala ni Laike.

"Aren't you going to explain what happened ylona?" Sinisikap niyang huwag mag tunog sarkastiko ang boses niya.

Tumikhim ako.

"Mistaken identity. Laike's in trouble lately akala nila kasabwat ako dahil naki pag usap ako sakanya"

He titled his head and smirked.

"You think you can lie to me? Alam na alam mo kung paano sila iligaw. You didn't panicked at all"

Sinusubukan kong mag sinungaling at palpak agad.

"Ylona" he called when he didn't get an answer from me.

"It's better if you don't know anything about me. Magiging komplikado lang lahat" malamig kong sabi.

Tumayo siya at ginulo ang buhok niya.

"Better? For fucking sake ylona! You don't know how it's fucking hurt me all the time i saw you with your blank reaction and.. and i can't even read what's on your mind. It feels like you're not my ylona"

Gumuhit ang pait at hinanakit sa puso ko ng marinig ko ang mga sinabi niya.

My ylona.

"Because I'm not your ylona anymore. Wala na Kenzo. Wala na yung dating ako na kulang na kulang para sayo"

Taas baba ang dibdib niya habang frustrated akong tiningnan.

"And please Kenzo. Don't force me to explain because I don't know where should I start" and I'm scared

"I'm sorry" he said softly.

Tumayo narin ako at lumabas sa veranda.

"You said it hurts you when you see me like this, did you even ask me if it hurts me too?"

Rinig ko ang mga hakbang niya at ilang sandali pa ay nasa gilid ko na siya.

"I didn't mean to do that i wa-

"Have you ever tried to ask me what I'm feeling when i saw your emotionless face that day?"

Nakatungo lang siya, hinahangin ang magulong buhok. Gusto kong sampalin siya dahil ang gwapo niya parin kahit sa dilim.

"Tinanong mo ba ako kung ano'ng naramdaman ko ng pinanood mo lang akong umalis? Kenzo did you ask?"

"No"

"Masakit. Masakit na masakit Kenzo" my voice broke.

I see the pain on his eyes but it became blurred because of my tears.

"I begged almost on bended knees! But you chose to stared at me with your blank face. Saying I'm not Enough"

"I'm sorry y-ylona sorry"

"Ginamit mo lang ako dib-

"No! Fuck no! Hindi kita kailanman ginamit ylona alam mo yan!" Mariing sabi niya.

"Hindi ko na alam! Kenzo! Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit si Lucille yung pinili mo kahit na ako naman yung girlfriend mo!"

"My mother asked me to be with her"

Matunog akong tumawa.

"What a good son!"

"Lucille is my long time frien-

"That's why you chose her over me?"

"Please sweetheart.. let me finish my word" he begged frustratingly.