OPTIONS AND CHOICES (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 38

The night was tiring, we slept almost one'0clock.

Paano ko nga naman ba maalala ang masakit na dahilan ng tattoo ko, kung lahat yata ng nakakapanindig palahibo ay ginawa niya dito.

I shifted on my bed to face the other side of it. I'm so damn tired and sleepy!

I felt his movement too, his legs are strangling my legs while his arm is on my waist, the other one is fixing my comforter.He's facing my back.

"Sweetheart don't turn your back at me" he said using his sleepy voice.

I didn't mind him. He pressed my boob to get my attention but I'm too sleepy for that.

He remove his hand on my waist and his legs, he stand. I thought he'll go to the bathroom but i felt his hand and legs again. He's now facing me.

Lumipat siya sa harapan ko na parang napaka laking problema niya kapag natulog ako ng nakatalikod sakanya.

"Better" he said before he embrace me again.

I felt his hand on my boob again slightly pressing it.

"Baby masakit" i whispered.

"Are you awake now?"

"I'm sleepy don't touch my boobs. Masakit"

Para siyang bingi dahil nag patuloy siya sa ginagawa. Ang isang kamay ay nasa buhok ko habang ang labi niya ay marahang hinahalikan ang parte ng mukha ko.

"I love you" he whispered and i smile.

"We'll go back to manila this afternoon. I'll tell mom and Lucille about us"

Nag mulat ako ng mata dahil sa sinabi niya. Ang magulong buhok niya ay bumagay lalo sa perpektong ilong at matalim na mga mata. Umiling ako at kumunot ang noo niya.

"Let's do that some other time. Let's take it slowly" he nodded but his eyes are not satisfied.

I close my eyes again.

I want him to do that very much. But after all those years, i learned that not every thing should take on a hurry. It's better to move slowly but surely.

And my secrets are not yet done. It would be unfair to him if he don't  know my secrets. And this is the risky one, because one's  he know about my secrets there will be a possibility that he'll never choose me. Permanently.

"Buntis kana kaya?" Wala sa sariling tanong niya na nag pa kunot ng noo ko kahit naka pikit.

"Walang nabubuntis ng agad agad pag katapos gawin iyon at hindi ako mabubuntis"

"But i didn't use condom and i release it all inside you"

Seriously? We're talking about it like it some game or movie show?

"I'm taking pills now stop talking"

"You are taking pills why!? But you're not taking pills back then?"

"Don't ask me that. You know why Kenzo"

"Ohh sorry baby"

Pagod akong umirap ng masaktan na naman dahil sa ginagawa niyang pag lalaro saakin. Pikon ko siyang inabot at hinawakan ang kanya.

"Fuck!!" Malakas niyang sigaw at tinanggal ang kamay ko.

"I told you to stop. It hurts Kenzo"

Kinunutan niya ako ng noo pero naupo lang ako at inayos ang comforter.

"Gusto mo na naman ha" banta niya.

"Stop it. I'm not sure if i can walk properly. Stop being so horny Kenzo"