Go f*ck yourself

Chapter 4:Filthy self

Y/N POV
I don't think it's a hard task to do,it sounds easy,just tonight and that's all.Maybe if I fall asleep,I won't be able to feel the heat later as my aunt told me that sleeping helps to reduce the heat.

"Y/N,you okay inside?"
It's Lisa unnie's voice.

I was about to answer her back when my spine gets electrocuted suddenly and I lost the energy to stand still.Thankfully,my bed is right beside me,I collapsed on it instantly.When my mind gets a bit clearer,I could feel my stomach area filled with heat.I guess that's what my aunt is referring to.

"Y/N?"
Jisoo unnie voices out.

"I am...alright,"
My voice shakes so much,they probably notice it too.

"You don't sound like it,"
Jennie unnie added.

"I am totally fine,I am just tired,"

"Okay,rest well,"
Rosé unnie said and none of them continues to talk afterward.

My vision becomes blurred and I am not able to think properly.All I need is someone else's warmth,just someone.My saliva drips out of my mouth uncontrollably,even my hands feel cold.
Damn it,this is not fake,I need someone to touch me so badly.

"The girls outside could help you,"
A voice speaks up in my head.

"No,not them,"
I resisted.

"You will be able to overcome this if you reach out for their help,"
She continued to allure me.

"No,I won't do this with them,"
I shook my head to get rid of the voice buzzing in my head.

There is only one way left to solve this problem,masturbate.That's really not something that I want to do but I need it.

I removed my pants out slowly,it's so embarrassing,I am not sure if I want to do this anymore.But the heat inside is urging me to do something about my body.I discarded my panties and placed it beside me.

My cold sweat drops on my forehead is rolling down my cheek,my lips are tremendously dry.
I am freaking nervous because this is my first time doing such filthy thing.While I am still fighting with myself of whether I should put my finger inside or just endure the heat for the night,my core starts to ache,that's not something I have been told.

Fuck it.

I decided to do the right thing,whatever that could help me to soothe the heat until next morning.

I reluctantly inserted one finger inside me,and surprisingly,it doesn't hurt as much as I thought.In fact,I feel like I am in heaven,that's beyond what I expected.I thrusted my finger inside me in a sloppy manner until I find my G-spot.I just wish that no one in the dorm heard my little moans here and there.

9.54p.m
When I am finally done with releasing the heat inside me,the gush of embarrassment filled my mind instantly.I practically run into my own bathroom and take a bath to wash away all my guilt and shame.I could hardly find any reason to persuade myself that this is okay.It just proved it further that I am abnormal,like what the heck,I don't even want to carry this kind of curse with me for the rest of my life.

I heaved out a heavy sigh and brushed my hair back frustratedly.I took a look at my finger,a sinfully sight stuck in my mind,me and unnies...No!It's all in my imagination,it won't ever happen,I am not even close to them.

Whatever,I am just overthinking,I should probably go and sleep now.

No One POV
Tuesday
8.48a.m
"Gosh,you're finally here,"
Y/N has been waiting for the butler to pass her the Horida bottle ever since 6a.m.

"Miss Lee,Mrs Lee said that it's not necessary for you to go back home tomorrow,"
The following day is a new month so they are allowed to go home if they want to.

"Of course I will go back,I have lots of stuffs to ask auntie Jieun,"

"Should we clean your room before you come back?"

"Is that even a question?Yes,you need to,"
Y/N rolled her eyes at her butler.

"Okay,"

"You can go now,"
Y/N gives him some money before he goes.

"I have heard that your daughter is sick,take this money,bye,"

11.23a.m
"As you all know,today is the last day of August,we're going to have a test and the result will be announced tomorrow morning,your class will then be arranged again,"
The teacher said,making all the students groan.

6.00p.m
"Y/N,do you want to eat with us?"
The oldest in the group asked.

"Yeah,I am cool with that,"
Y/N replied,she has nobody else to eat with anyway.

6.19p.m
"Girls,do you want a sleepover at my house for the next three days?"
Lisa asked,her parents will be out of town for the next three days.It will be bored if she was to stay in her mansion by herself.

"Yes,"
Jisoo answered excitedly.

"I will go too,"
Jennie followed.

"Me too,"
Rosé replied.

"Y/N,how about you?"
Lisa is particularly anticipated for her answer,if she goes there,it will be a good chance to bond closer to her.

"If you don't mind that I only know you all for three days then sure,"
She could see that the girls are trying their best to get to know her better.She has also learned that they're not as rude as the rumours said.In fact,all of them take care of her in different ways.May be because she is the youngest in the dorm,they feel the need to take care of her.

Jisoo would share her snacks with Y/N,Jennie actually protected her the other day,Chaeyoung has given her two more paintings in the morning and Lisa would help her to carry her stuffs to her class although they are not heavy at all.

"So you will go!"
Lisa squeals happily,she can't hide her exhilaration.Not only her,the other three are also celebrating the fact that Y/N is having a sleepover with them.

"Are we sleeping in a room together?"
Y/N asked.

"Yes,my parents have reserved a sleepover room for me,we could use the room for the next three days,"

"I am assuming that we're not moving anywhere outside your house,"
Jisoo said,she is really lazy to go outdoor, especially when the weather these days are turning cold.

"No worries,we will have everything in my house only,"
Her house has a swimming pool,a barbecue area,a gaming room,a small theatre,a small zoo and a lot more.They could just hangout at her house for all three days.