Sweet Secrets

21 year old Alex is a unique person.
His pronouns are he/him, but sometimes he was just flat out confused.
Overall, he'd decided that he/him fit him best, despite the fact that his biggest secret lies underneath his clothes and inside his bedroom.

He has a crush on the boy from the shop across the way from his shop in the mall, they'd been staring at each other, smiling and winking sometimes here and there, but neither of them had asked the other out, let alone introduced themselves.
Alex wanted to pluck up the courage to do so, but what if this guy wasn't even gay? More importantly, what if on the off chance he was interested in Alex, he found out Alex's secret and hated him for it?

TWs in advance: There is smut, plenty of it, as well as self harm, homophobia, panic attacks