Mhmm so what?

Get to know me #2
          
          I actually moved schools 7 times started from when I was 5 years old. I'm unstable and I usually sits alone. My parents frequently asked about friends since the first time I moved to elementary school. I'm really easy to get annoyed especially when they're clingy asf.
          
          In highschool, I got a friend when I was 14. 13? Alone :) 15, which is this year, I got 2 more friends after 3 months cutting my wrist out of stress and guest what?
          
          I ruined our friendship! Haha funny right? I moved and my first very friend in highschool cried and begged to move too. She doesn't have anyone else that understand her other than me. The other two usually doesn't really understand her. She moved away, leaving both of my other friends. One of them is really sick. Everyday, she'll be suffering from her disease; which is a lot.
          
          The other one? Oh yeah she left my sick friend. It's not her fault. She's constantly being alone (because my sick friend always go back home. Cuz she's sick. I stayed at a dorm btw) that she tried to find other friends. I'm glad she found some friends tho, even though they're fake if you ask me ¯\(◉‿◉)/¯
          
          My life is messed up and I regret living lol 

Man, I'm totally lost rn... I want to die, cuz I'm so fucking tired and I don't think I deserve to live... But then I feel like I need to stay alive for them... I feel like someone needs me... I'm so lost... fuuuckk

Get to know me #1
          
          10 things I might have / already have
          
          1. Anxiety 
          2. Schizophrenia 
          3. Borderline personality disorder
          4. Bipolar disorder
          5. Depression 
          6. Suicidal thoughts
          7. Self h*rming
          8. Self ab*se
          9. High imagination
          10. Numbness 
          
          It's n҈i҈c҈e҈ to meet you :)

Once again.... I feel like dying... Maybe if I care less about life, it'll be better? Everything is getting worse and it's all my fault. I feel pathetic. I feel worthless. All of you guys beautiful speech, it affects my heart and somehow heal a little of the cracks. But it doesn't stay long. They break again. Like a mirror, the more it break, the smaller it become. My humanity for myself and other people is thin now. If you say anything, it'll take more than that to actually heal me. I'm sorry.

Why does bruises look so beautiful on my skin?

To my friends, I'm tired of living and I don't feel anything other than numbness and tiredness. I might jump anytime this year. Maybe at 12 o'clock when the new year has arrived. Maybe tonight. Maybe tomorrow. I'm sorry that I'm not a good friend. I tried my best to live. You guys have done so much for me and I'm thankful for that. Good night. We might not see each other again the other day. Wish me luck 

I totally didn't eat half of a bar of chocolate in a minute. Now i'm finishing it-

Dazai, it's just a part of the plan right? It's not real right? You won't do that. You won't right? It's just a part of the plan and he's ALIVE. You're kidding me right..? 
          
          Lying my whole life,
          You and me,
          There's no difference.
          
          Maybe this is my punishment,
          For all that I've done.
          
          But is this really be the end,
          Me end up hurting myself again?

⩨͢ ࿓᪶ ະ﹢ ˖ Hello there, Thank you for you vote! I hope you're satisfied with my book~ Have a nice day/night!!

Cries filled the room ,
          Another happy day for the mom ,
          A girl in her arms crying loudly ,
          Another child to complete the family.
          
          The old woman is now a granny ,
          Not only for one but two beauty ,
          They are energetic making a mess ,
          Keeping the old woman from her loneliness.
          
          The old woman is on a thin line ,
          It can be any time ,
          She's ready ,
          But not the family.
          
          The girl who's the second child ,
          Always her favorite child ,
          Staring blankly void of emotions ,
          Nothing is showed in the dark eyes.
          
          The old woman is now a memory ,
          The favorite girl singing her melody ,
          Trying to reach for her ,
          But emotions stopped her.
          
          Today is the day ,
          The day the old woman was born ,
          The favoured one ,
          Has started singing again.
          
          Happy birthday grandma <3333
          
          I really miss you and we'll meet again at the afterlife
          
          Until then...