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@oceanrots Yeah they are, it’s difficult for me to see them that way because I’m not happy with them. Honestly I never have been.

@oceanrots A lot of things, I just never told anybody anything. :(

@oceanrots Thanks but Pinterest is fine. I don’t have either discord or insta. I’ve thought about insta a couple times but I always talk myself out of it. XD

@oceanrots Yup. ;) lol.

@oceanrots ❤️❤️

@oceanrots I shall.

@oceanrots Thanks. :)

@oceanrots Yeah it’s okay.

@oceanrots Yeah I am. :(

@oceanrots This is going to be a long rant so sorry, it's probably time I get this off my chest, it's been on my mind for the past 4 months of me being inactive. 
            
            I'm inactive because I simply couldn't stand to be on Wattpad anymore. It hurt too much. :( There were too many negative things that it made me feel and none of it sat right with me. So as of December, of last year, I had decided I was going to leave in January, I did. I didn't say a word, didn't want too because I knew you all would say things that would guilt trip me into coming back and I didn't want that. So, I didn't say anything, and no one knew. 
            
            Besides no one realizes I'm ever here anyways so it would be like I was never there to begin with. 
            
            I felt so easily forgettable and every day it kept getting more and more true. But it was fine because I liked being invisible and, in the background, that's how my introvert self likes it. I know I shouldn't care so much about this but that doesn't mean it didn't hurt sometimes. I felt like I couldn't rant on here either because it felt pointless too. 
            
            And it also felt a little pointless to be active in general, everyone else was inactive and I had made no progress in two years, followers specifically. Stuck in the 400's since December 2024. I stopped caring about it a LONG time ago, so when I lost followers, I was always happy about it, I wanted to lose them. 
            
            Then my crappy fanfics, I can't tell you how much I dislike my fanfics, like I can't stand those awful works. I wasn't proud of them I wasn't happy with them I couldn't understand why anyone would like them in the first place. I only thing I like about them is that they are Sokeefe and that's it, nothing else. But then again, I also lost the spark of wanting to write fanfics so that lost its point as well. 
            
            There is probably a lot more I could rant about, but this is just the gist of it. Sorry, this was long. But it felt good to get this off. :)