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WHOOP WHOOP!!!

Ok ok so I don’t have school tomorrow and I as getting ready to sleep, already in pajamas and in my covers, suddenly, my mom comes home, tells me she’s gonna be out longer cuz she’s gonna go eat and gives me her phone, then she tells me I CAN USE IT TO TAPK TO FRIENDS YASASSSSSS BEST MUM EVAH!

HOLY LONELY PONY EATING MACARONI HIIIIIII

i think its 6 AM there, ill go

sorry for ranting and being clingy, its just i wanna talk with someone that doesnt see me as stupid.

ive felt like crying internally alot lately, people i thought we're good tell me horrible things, people leave and replace me with someone else, everyone tells me to be social but i just fucking cant, im too weird like that, im just some phone-obbsesed weirdo thats always late and unaware of her surroundings, i cant talk to anyone because they just dont understand, even if they try they cant, this is why i have internet friends, they do understand, without my phone i keep having mental breakdowns, but i dont tell anyone, because then they worry i have a problem, idk if i do to be honest, i do know i have anxiety, and a low self esteem from the horrible things people say, certain people like my mum, she can sometimes get carried away with what she says, i dont think she realizes what she says really hurts me just because i put on a poker face when she does, i feel like im drowning all the time now, in the brink of tears, i NEED my alone time and now i never get it, my hands tremble all the time as well but thats mostly unoticeable because i always but them in my pockets, my 'friends' are either leaving me to be 'cool', getting partners or just plain ignoring me, this is why i like making jokes, i make other people laugh and happy and that makes me happy, i dont understand why im so absent-minded, im just stupid probably haha, well, mums coming home soon, gtg, see ya tomorrow, hopefully, night BritishWoman

sorry for leaving my mom said i cant even use the computer so i did absolutely nothing after that while my brother watched netflix, i just layed on the hammock and thought a lot, drew a little,
          hey is it bad if i cried but i didnt know for what exact reason but at the same time i knew exacly why?

hallo????

hey.