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my moms so fuckingnegative and i hate her for that
          
          no one gives a SHIT. ifyou think im ugly
          
          i dont give a DAMN. if people think im ugly
          
          what matters more is if im happy, content, satisfied, and confident in myself
          
          i KNOW ur OBVIOUSLY just projecting YOUR insecurities ONTO ME becuse of the fact you go like "oh i know how it feelz" "oh i know what people say and think" so???  im not insecure in the way that YOU are. 
          
          the fact she is ALWAYS SO NEGATIVE really damages my selfesteem on how i see myself, i used to be so sure of myself but now i just question myself morw and more because of YOU.

its been some time since ive been here on wattpad

Knew this day was gonna be shit, 2/10 birthday
          
          Usually my birthdays just feel like normal days, just with extra food, but this day was hella shitty
          
          Don't think I ever had a good birthday, I don't remember having a good birthday, maybe I had good birthdays in my early childhood but thin shit hit the fan and everything turned dookie

I LOOK SO HOT ISBDUSVSJSVDHAJ

God, please, not today. I don't want to have a breakdown today, just not today. Were supposed to celebrate OUR birthdays today, not today, please

IM GUNNA LOOK SO HOY TODAY, MEHEHEHEHEHEHEH

!!!!!!! A BIT OF VENTING AT THE END!!!!!! 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Please, someone teach me how to cry at reasonable times. I can't just not cry at times I should be crying, but then I cry at times I shouldnt be. Like, I just cried yesterday because of a FAKE SCENARIO, but when I literally got HIT and been DEGRADED and MISUNDERSTOOD I HAVE A POKER FACE ON???? I FEEL NOTHING????? WHAT THE ACTUAL HELLO DUDE

Why do i always just turn off my emotions whenever I notice them? I wanted to cry a few minutes ago, I realized I wanted to cry, I set a time for me to cry, I can't cry anymore
          
          Like WTF

RANT!!! 
          
          
          
          Istg, when will people understand that being asexual, DOES NOT equal to being scared of seggs or being innocent, and ALSO doesn't mean that you don't get CRUSHES
          
          People always get so shocked when I make a dirty joke and im asexual, like, they got "arent you asexual? " LIKE WHAT OWHDIABSOS
          
          And that they also think asexuals don't get sexual thoughts, like I EXIST KEBEKWBEKE IM A HYPERSEXUAL ASEXUAL KWBDKWNWKW
          
          And another thing, 
          
          Sexuality is about SEXUAL ATTRACTION, sexuality DOESNT NOT MEAN SEXUAL AND ROMANTIC ATTRACTION, BECAUSE THOSE ARE TWO DIFFERENT THINGS
          
          You can be bisexual, and yet be aromantic, you can be asexual, and yet be biromantic
          
          Sexual attraction is like a fwb (friends with benefits) type of situation, the people involved are FRIENDS (a platonic relationship, not a romantic one) that do SEXUAL activities together. It's literally in the name, SEXUAL attraction
          
          Romantic attraction is when you think of someone and you go "oh I want to date them, I wanna be their s/o" it's about having FEELINGS for someone. Wanting to date someone doesnt always mean you want to do sexual activities together because when we say "to date" thats more of a deeper, more emotional level, it's about how you feel about someone and not about how they make you feel physically
          
          Im also not saying having seggs with someone just means it's all physical and no emotion is involved, because seggs can be passionate and full of love and care for a person BUT that only happens when romantic feelings are involved, if it's just a sexual relationship now THAT is just purely physical

Ive recently gotten some supplements for growth (cause im so short like wtf and I seem to be getting shorter) and im only 4th capsule now, wish me luck (◍•ᴗ•◍)