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Okay, I realize that I've been gone for...a really long time and I am just now getting back to being active or semi-active. You guys deserve to know all the shit that has been going on in my life recently just for peace of mind.
So, first, starting last June, I moved to Italy. Most of you guys know that, yeah, nothing new. I've been trying to learn Italian and all, but that is also a given. The thing that I did not expect was for my asthma to act up. There is something in the air here - whether it be the trash burning, the Sahara sand storms, or just the atmosphere here itself - that is proving to be an irritant. I've had three or four bad asthma attacks in the past year in Italy versus one in the past four years in America. It hasn't been all that fun. I broke my toe in month one of being overseas...done Volleyball, Swim team, more Swim team, Basketball, more Volleyball, and more Swim team for sports. (Really smart, I know.) So, sports, broken bone, and asthma for physical shit happening in the last year.
Onto emotional shit. Last July, my family went back to the states to see my grandparents because, y'know, we can. At that point, my grandpa was having serious issues with his health. He was gaining about three pounds in water everyday, had oxygen that he was supposed to have on all day, and had heart problems - as in, it stopped beating for five plus seconds at least once a day. It was hard to look him in the eye, let alone talk to him as we knew he wasn't going to make it much longer. Sure enough, last September, he passed away after claiming that he 'wasn't ready to go. It's not my time yet.' only a few hours before he died. Obviously, we flew back into the States. I couldn't even walk into the room where he was before being cremated. My mom seems to think that I never grieved properly while we were there for his funeral, and for the most part, I agree.
Hold for part two of explanation as I am feeling long winded today.