Hey all, I’m going to lay it all out there.
I haven’t been honest with you all. At all. I keep making promises I know I can’t keep and it’s time for me to tell the truth finally.
I’ve been struggling.
Mentally, physically.
I am completely and utterly exhausted.
And in a way of dealing with this on my own I decided alcohol and some not very good substances would be the best way.
I was wrong.
I’ve been writing because I feel I have to, it’s now a chore just how I feel like getting up every morning is.
I need to take time. I need to take time now before I have no time to give.
I love you all so dearly you have no idea, you’ve given me the chance to write and develop worlds I’ve always wanted to. I feel I have a chance of becoming a writer one day because of you all. So I thank you for that.
If ANY of you want to talk, I’m here. About anything, anything at all. I will listen, wholeheartedly.
Maybe I’ll finish the new chapter soon, maybe I won’t. But I can’t keep lying anymore and disappointing you all. You all mean to much to me for me to treat you like that.
Anyways I’ve blabbered on too long now, if we don’t talk anytime soon then I’ll talk to you all the next time.
Love you all for life and longer,
Nikayla (author and friend)