Aria

I need help........
          I should probably talk to someone who has a good understanding of health.......but I don’t know if this serious enough....
          
          Last night sucked. A lot. I woke up at 4am really cold. 
          Like reallyyyy cold. I could barely feel myself. I dumped a bunch of blankets on me, but it still wasn’t warm enough. I was panicking, I couldn’t breathe, could barely move. I felt my body overheating because of all the blankets and the fact that I was scrunched up in a fetal position, but I didn’t care. 
          It felt like I had fever. 
          I felt so empty. I didn’t want to exist anymore. 
          I even scratched at myself hoping pain would be better than this weird feeling. 
          I think I cut myself.
          I somehow fell asleep and woke up this morning. Perfectly fine. Except for little blood on my sleeve from where I had scratched.
          
          I told my mom what happened, and she didn’t even care.
          
          “You’ll be fine” she said. I asked for a temperature check at least but she didn’t listen. 
          
          She didn’t care [inserts sad emojis :( ]
          
          This has happened once before like 1 month ago, but it wasn’t this bad. 
          
          What’s wrong with me? Should I seek help?
          
          I also had a nightmare of a flood last night, right before I woke up to the cold feeling. I was drowning. Any thoughts?
          
          
          Please?

Hey yall, does anyone know what happens if a flight gets cancelled? 
          Our flight back home from California just got cancelled.
          
          Moms stressing, dads confused, and I’m sitting here reading wattpad and watching my parents fight. 
          
          
          Oh gods, what is gonna happen?! We were supposed to be on the plane by now!!!
          
          
          I’m panicking internally and my mom’s yelling at me. Help

Signing off for the night! See yall in the morning!

Hello!! I also play piano and viola (random i know)

…….you all are crazy.
          
          61 reads on my crappy book?!?! And 5 votes? Thank you thank you thank you!!! Tysm!! May the gods be with you!

Yall, it has been confirmed, Percy eats fish
          (For more information, read Wraith of the Triple Goddess pg. 319)

OMGs I need to update, I AM SO SORRY EVERYONE :(((((

Update on friend stuff (go read my previous rant)
          
          
          Du (read previous thingy) asked me to be tech partners. Now, we had to choose our partner for the ENTIRE SEMESTER. If I said yes, she would be with me for the entire semester. I was planning to ask another friend, when someone else asked her instead and she said yes. I didn’t know anyone else in the class except Du and my friend, so I said yes. (The worst mistake of my life)
          She’s been making type for her, copying me, and a bunch of other stuff. I did what @Annabethchase4eva told me to do and told the teacher. She couldn’t switch me, but she talked to Du about some things (idk what she said) and now she’s better. She did tell some of the other girls that I was a snitch (pj told me) but I really didn’t care. I then talked to my mom about it, and she gave me some advice. I should just let Du be, and ignore everyone else. I guess since I told on Du, she told the rest of them to stop, cuz they haven’t bothered me since. I’ve also been trying to calm down by eating lunch in the library and listening to music. (Epic the musical anyone?) The situation has gotten better, and I’ve stopped worrying about it as much. (I slept longer the past few days.) 
          
          Thank you to everyone who commented and gave me support, I really appreciated it.

Wraith of the triple goddess is out!! OMG! And Tysm to @lilyrose7659 for getting me one, I am in debt!

Do you ever get a little bit tired of life? Like your not really happy but you don’t wanna die? Like your hanging by a thread but you gotta survive, yea you gotta survive..........(numb little bug)
          
          Cuz that’s how I feel like.........
          
          Ima rant here:
          So, basically, I’m dealing with friend drama. Long story short, I made a stupid decision and my friends my friends were mad at me. They made a group chat, titled it “we hate you”, waited till I was online, and then proceeded to spam my messages with really hurtful comments.
          Like seriously, I was crying.
          We made up though, and all was well
          Or so I thought.
          A girl, who was my friend but we had drifted apart a little bit, joined our group. 
          I’m gonna call her G, cuz that’s her middle name
          @lilyrose7659 , please do not try to go find her and call her out.
          She turned everyone against me. Whenever I would leave my table to go say hi to some other friends, she and some others would follow me and tease me. I only had one girl by my side. I’m gonna call her PJ, but that’s not her name or related to her name. She told me everything the rest of the group was planning to do. They would try to trick me, and I would foil their plans. It got really bad one day, and so we split up and I blocked them. 
          I thought it was the end.
          Months later, school starts again, and one of them (ima call her Du) added me to a group chat. It had everyone. I unblocked Du so she could text me. She confronted me about things and we apologized to each other. But Du is a little b*tch
          She been using me to her own advantage, and only apologized so she could use me. They were going to start their little tricks. I haven’t fallen for them yet all because of PJ. I owe so much to her.
          I was walking out the school, and they were all making fun of me (except PJ). I’ve blocked all of them. 
          I’m also keeping this secret from my mom, and it’s stressful. I’ve been unble to sleep at night.
          Someone give me advice please, I am fucking gods dam done with this shitty world.