Hey! I'm not sure if anyone remembers me, and part of me hopes not.
If you don't know why you're following me, I wrote warrior cat lemons in 2018 and 2019 before the book was taken down by Wattpad.
I'll be honest, I regret ever writing it. I don't want to be associated with what I've written, and I will continue to worry that it will somehow become known and tied back to me.
I wrote those stories when I was young. I have struggled with isolation and avoidance all my life due to AvPD, and it felt like being sexual was the only way to be seen. I don't want to get into details but through experience, I learned early on that being sexual was the easiest way to get attention online. I fell into a rabbit hole that ended with me merging my only major interest and comfort with the one thing I knew would get attention.
It honestly feels like I've betrayed my younger self.
I am sorry
If you find yourself being attracted to animals, please seek professional help. If you're experiencing intrusive sexual thoughts about animals, please know that you are not your thoughts. They do not define you.