Rose

yoooo :) 
          Okay Murderous Moon (still only the first two chapters lol) is now available on this account, what once was my fanfiction account. But fanfiction comes with its creative restrictions and my library is more developed on my current account so yeah, I won't really be using the second_white_rose account anymore. Maybe one day I'll write Scar of Redemption fully, but one story at a time is enough to waste my energy, for now.

Hello there, here I am again. Only this time, it’s immediately a goodbye message. I won’t be closing this account, just leaving it behind for now. To get straight to the point: I have anorexia. Since the beginning of last year (I obviously don’t know when you read this, for me at the moment of writing this “the beginning of last year” means the beginning of 2022).
          
          I receive professional help, there is no need to worry. I’ve entered my phase of weight restoration, which is taking up all my energy. I’m only now noticing just how much energy I lack and have lacked throughout my entire eating disorder, it’s impacted me more than I thought. 
          
          What I am trying to say by this message is that I am gonna be inactive for some time. This could be a couple months, or maybe a few years. If I come back, because I feel as though I’ve outgrown my writing phase. It doesn’t work as a way for me to escape reality anymore. Which is pretty sad, especially since I just revealed to you what my coping mechanisms look like nowadays. I also wish I did it differently, trust me.  : )
          
          This is getting long, too long. Bleh.
          Toodle-oo <3333

I for once stuck to my writing plan, and so now you can read the updated prologue of Murderous Moon. I'm trying to also finish the first chapter today, but I can't promise you that since I still have other work to do.
          
          But what matters is that I'm quite satisfied with my writing, although I'm not sure the mood is right. So if anyone notices the mood of the story is off and doesn't fit with what happens, please let me know ;)

Done so far for the new set up of Murderous Moon:
          - Plotted the prologue and chapter 2 fully
          - Came up with a better ending
          - Introduced and switched out some characters
          - Found some pictures on Pinterest I can fit in the story
          - Updated my writing playlist
          - Designed a new cover
          - Changed some names and traits
          - Written down the full backstory
          - settled on love interests
          - added more POV’s
          - Checked my writing skills fir writing in first person (it’s not as bad as I thought, luckily)

Welcome to the Netherlands, where you walk around without jacket one minute and the next there’s a thunderstorm. I mean it, I cam to school without a jacket today and now I’m stuck in a classroom where kids play earrape Thomas the train music feat. Drake on repeat. :|

I have plotted the prologue + Chapter 1-5 completely & organised my “Murderous Moon” Pinterest board by now, hoping to publish the prologue and first two chapters soon ;)
          
          Also I finally wrote down the entire backstory and all plot twists, so now I actually won’t forget them :)

Currently working on Murderous Moon again after almost a year. I decided the plot is so basic yet so extraordinary at the same time and well, sometimes I get weird ideas. So now here I am, working on it again. This time I’m actually going to plan it all out, so hopefully I won’t lose track of my ideas now. I can’t promise anything, but I surely am excited to write again. I unpublished the old chapters and will be adjusting the original plot a bit, so it all turns out better in the end. My writing has gotten a lot better in the past year, believe it or not. And yes I should be asleep by now, you are right about that.

Actually writing? Yeah no we do don’t that here.
          
          Ahem*
          
          Well hello there, you thought I was dead? Oh I wish! 
          
          I haven’t written on this account in half a year and if I’m honest I don’t think I’ll ever finish writing “Murderous Moon”. Don’t get me wrong, I love the concept of the story, and it was my first ever real writing project + the reason I made this account. But I changed so much in the plot that I now can’t really call it a story anymore, just a combination of scenes that don’t fit together. 
          
          On the (I guess) positive side, there’s a different story I am working on here and there. I did a project for English a while ago at school with four of my classmates where I wrote a short story about the concept of parallel universes and now want to write it again, this time longer.
          
          
          In the meantime, for fanfictions, song recs or just me ranting about how precious Jun Han is, you can follow my Kpop account @RoseExists
          
          I also have been thinking about putting some (cringey) fanfictions on YouTube, to make the story come more alive with pictures, music, etc., will be letting you know if I create a channel.
          
          Well, that’s all for now. Go study or else Namjoon will shave your eyebrows.
          
          Not that I had eyebrows to begin with...
          
          Make sure you actually shower and get yourself a sleep schedule, so you don’t end up like me a few months ago.
          
          

I know, I know, no one reads these posts. But that doesn't stop me from writing them! 
          
          I've had this thought on my mind lately; a book with just random scenes, without a plot.
          
          something like: "100 Couple Goals To Put In Your Novel''
          
          Someone help me, is this really a good idea or am I going to feel more single than ever?