Natasha💛

I need to learn to love myself before others can love me

I feel like life is against me at times. One moments I feel like I can conquer the world, the next I'm at rock bottom trying to dig myself out of a grave. This moment I hit rock, I can't do anything, it sucks because my friends try to help but nothing works. my family doesn't see it because they are too blind to see the state I'm in. The only one that has is my sister and she makes my life a living hell, all she does is complain and I can't deal with it, when she tries to help it doesn't work then drags my friends into the situation to help which also doesn't work. Worse part is that my sister blames my friends for the way I have been acting which isn't the case at all, they have helped me through more shit then she ever has. So basically I feel like life is against me since I don't try and let people help me which I really should do.

With nights like these who needs the days I shut my eyes and sleep them away I'm on the dark side of your room with the notches on your bedpost with friends like you who needs friends I shut my mouth and we do it all again I'm on the dark side of your room with the notches on your bedpost

I'm screwed school starts soon and I got my schedule and everything but I have NO classes with most of them and it is physically making me sick and I want to cry  

Bring out the guns, we love the danger One, two, three, just pull the trigger One bullet left inside the chamber Let us play some Russian Roulette

We're young we're young we're dumb and we don't care forever stuck in our youth

Where is the hope in a world so cold

Hey there darling you'll blink your life away and he'll be waiting here wishing you had stayed but if you stay here fearing the unknown you'll regret not being alone

Distance disturbs me